Really struggling physically lately. Today I havent had strength for anything. And have been in the bed all day. On work days I push thru. Get home and have been in the bed with no energy left by 7. I do have a lot on my mind and have been under a huge amount of stress. And this is terrible on RA. But I miss working out and being strong. Physically and emotionally. If I have a good day. I pay for it the next. Im tired of feeling defeated. In body. Mind and spirit. Everyone knows I have a ton of faith. But lately I dont even know if its the size of a mustard seed. Been in the valley longer then I want to remember. And Im ready for me and my kiddos to be reaping in the blessings of God. For standing with him. For not quitting. And pressing on. Am I perfect by no means. But Ive always kept my eyes on the only one who can see me thru. Ive prayed for others and encouraged others when I couldnt even pray for myself. Ive loved my enemies and prayed for them. Ive always tried to be the optimistic one. But lately I hold back tears. This is not me. And Im tired. I guess today I need those prayers. Breakthrough has got to be around the bend. To be so tried over and over and over for so many years. And to keep pressing thru.
Posted on: Sun, 14 Dec 2014 20:27:17 +0000