Recently, I performed my first reading as a medium - it was one of the most incredible (and emotional) experiences Ive ever had. I read for a client who requested a general reading, and then she revealed that she had recently lost her father and her young granddaughter. She wanted to know if they were together, and if they were happy. I was nervous at the request - I only expected to perform a general reading, and I never mentioned that I could communicate with the other side (and I wasnt planning to). I started to tell her that I wasnt able to do it - then I heard the voice of a gruff older gentleman say: Hell yes - I want to talk to my kid! I saw this mans face clearly in my minds eye, a man whose expression seemed frozen into a frown until he smiled, and also totally bald except for a thin curly-q on top of his head. I told her the information I was receiving from him, and she confirmed everything. It was incredibly humbling, and it was a firm validation that I *can* communicate with the other side. I was so grateful to this lady for being so open with me, and it was a privilege to help her make some peace with such a heavy loss. Part of what had me so hesitant was that I wasnt sure I was receiving information from the right source, until my client confirmed everything that gentleman was whispering to me. I felt his love for her, and I felt how proud he was of her. Over the course of the reading, I stopped freaking out that I was talking to a ghost. In the end, I was helping a father communicate with his little girl. Mediumship is something that I discovered only recently. It came on out of the blue, like a switch that got flipped when I wasnt looking. Its something Ive been fighting against, because Im not totally comfortable with that side of myself - it was really hard not to be afraid of it at first. Imagine taking a shower, or making yourself a bowl of oatmeal, and a voice starts whispering in your ear, followed by another voice, and then another. Most of them proved to be tricksters. I have been approached by spirits claiming to be archangels, gods - the list go on. It got tough, because its a lot that I hear already, without adding ghosts to the mix. Annoying, and yes - sometimes a little scary. Spirits are attracted to anyone they see as an open channel - if they think theres any chance you will be able to hear them, they will attempt to contact you. It could literally be a voice that suddenly pops into your head, or you could be watching TV or listening to music, and youll hear white noise or static where there normally shouldnt be. The more open of a channel you are, the more persistent those voices will be. The good news: If you find yourself on bombarded with spirits, if you ask them to go away and leave you alone - they *have* to listen to you. My problem was that for every ghost I sent away, three more would show up. It caused a lot of stress for me, because I couldnt shut it off. Its not easy calling yourself a psychic. Calling yourself a medium - its a whole other ballgame. Im writing this now because I cant get that reading with the lady and her father out of my head. I still remember the sound of her fathers voice in my ear. I remember the image of him holding a baby girl in his arms, whom I can only presume was his great granddaughter. It made me realize that not all ghosts make contact just to have fun or because theyre bored. Most of these souls are genuinely looking for closure, some kind of peace. From what I can tell, they feel the hurt that they leave behind, but they dont actually feel any pain where they are. They really just want to let the people that they love know, You know what? Im doing okay! I love you, I miss you, and if you find yourself thinking about me, its because Im right there with you. Im still not totally comfortable calling myself a medium. However, Im finally beginning to understand what a beautiful, and delicate gift it is. I dont want my clients to assume that I will communicate with anyone they ask me to. If someone were to ask me to communicate with a celebrity like Michael Jackson, Marilyn Monroe, or Robin Williams - I would tell them no. If they tried to push me, I would tell them flat out to go to hell. These poor souls shouldnt be used as a source of amusement or entertainment in death - I see it as hugely disrespectful, and I wouldnt do it. Its not about using ghosts or spirits for entertainment - its about calling out to someone on the behalf of a loved one. Its about releasing grief, and closing a chapter. Its about making peace with loss, so that we *are* able to move on. Im so thankful to my client, and to her father for opening up to me the way they did. It gave me a much better idea of the kind of psychic I strive to be. Im happy to say, its not so scary anymore.
Posted on: Thu, 13 Nov 2014 08:42:43 +0000