Self criticism actually makes you sick. You can’t focus, relax, digest, sleep, or shift your energy as well as you can as when you feel good about yourself. That’s why choosing to feel good about yourself, no matter what, is the most important Practice you can undertake. It also requires the most courage! I was diagnosed four years ago with SEVERE depression after my brain surgery was done..I was like a vegetable; no kidding. They started me on depression, after one did not work, another, I spent almost four years not wanting to be around anyone..I lost all reasoning, stayed in my pajamas all day. I was sleeping 16 hours, and up 8 in a 24 hr period. Was not hungry. I would curl up on the couch and cry from my spirit..The only comfort I had was looking out the window watching my Red Eagle fly by, and the cardinals eat the food I fed them. I would look up Father Sky, and asked why ~~ I asked why did I get saved 3 different times, actually 4 during surgery, he almost lost me..I had 2 strokes during surgery. I was put in an induce coma for 3 days....I went in Mon AM.....woke mid afternoon Thursday~~very WEIRD. I went to eat some oatmeal, but I got it all over me, missed my mouth, hubby had to feed me for a couple of weeks there after..............It was the hardest thing I ever went through....Iooke like I had retardation. I got my disability very soon after I got home...I make as much as I did when I was working part time...but I hit a brick wall, no more nursing for I have some short term memory loss. Went to rehab for 3 months..and the slow climb to a very, very different place in my world.. Antidepressant one after another...NOTHING helped me.....I felt so sad. I thought I could not live the rest of my life. All my dreams were shattered. Then my honey found one of the highest standing, named BEST Neuro doc in TX!!! He said he will try a cocktail on me..He is suppose to be the GURU of all. I put my faith in him, If he didnt work I would have just given up..........it WORK...I have gone 4 wks without crying for no reason. My apathy is gone, and I am like a busy bee doing things productive. I would not have the great pleasure of being in this gr. I wold check my e mail about 3 times a week......now I have flipped back to the old me..God help everyone. I see the GURU tomorrow..he wont believe me....... I want to thank all of my beloved friends who did a prayer chain for me, and any of u held me in prayer..a very humble thank you. Sorry this is so long, but I wanted to share my story with my Oyate. I am sending a few pictures so u can see what they did to my head..hope it does not gross u out.................I thank my God every night he did not want me now.................Amen Wado, and everyone asisy niv wa do ai do..learned this tonight fr another...WALK IN PEACE From making my peace, to recovery..these were all taken31/2 years ago..now I am back in the saddle, and back in LIFE forever god wants me to!! Sorry so long....WADO
Posted on: Mon, 28 Jul 2014 03:07:51 +0000
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