Sharing... Sometimes, I want to write something down, but before I can an alter will distract me or stop me. One such time is when a new alter reveals herself to me. Last, week, with all the chaos going on inside, a new alter was formed. She appears to be my grandmother. I never got to know my grandparents because I was never left alone with them. Our conversations were very basic, polite and monitored carefully by my mother. This was so none of our family secrets would accidentally slip out. Our inside world mirrors my one grandmas house because it was the only place I felt safe as a kid. And now grandma, in the form of an alter is there too. This is rather interesting. Now everyone inside can have the relationship with her they longed for, even though its not really her, but another part of us. Through her, we can also experience being a grandparent, which I long for but cannot have, as my oldest son is autistic and my daughter at only 18, is not near ready yet. Our system seems to provide for itself and fulfill our needs by creating whatever it needs to relieve excessive stress. Sometimes this is creating a new alter to help out inside or outside. Since this happened last week, things immediately calmed down. The pressure, stress was relieved and alters became content. They stopped wanting to integrate and instead, want to get to know grandma. This has provided a much needed break for us. More later.
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 05:03:01 +0000
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