So I have been hiding in my shell for the last few days. I can not seem to hold back the tears. Really missing Saeed. Wondering when Saeed will come home. Seems like a dream to have Saeed home for Christmas. The kids have been longing for his touch. My son has been looking at pictures of daddy holding him and kissing him. I can see the longing in their eyes for that touch of their dad...It is so hard to watch as a mom...Some days seem so hard and such a struggle. What does the future hold? The anticipations, the hopes, the disappointments... I remember a prayer that I have prayed since I was a child. I had longed to please my Father and so I would pray for faith because I had read that that is what pleases God. Today I decided to let go and trust God again. To have faith...to believe in Him. I felt the heaviness leave and a new sense of hope and joy feel my heart. I dont know what the future holds or how much longer this trial will drag on, but I know the God I can trust. He has never failed. He has been with me and Saeed every step of the way. Naghmeh Abedini Hebrews 11: 32-38 32 And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson and Jephthah, about David and Samuel and the prophets, 33 who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34 quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35 Women received back their dead, raised to life again. There were others who were tortured, refusing to be released so that they might gain an even better resurrection. 36 Some faced jeers and flogging, and even chains and imprisonment. 37 They were put to death by stoning;[e] they were sawed in two; they were killed by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— 38 the world was not worthy of them.
Posted on: Sun, 23 Nov 2014 01:41:01 +0000