(Thanks Paula Marie Bentley) God bless all who served, and still serve, to give us the freedoms we take for granted every day. The Things I Carry by Michael Marks The old train lumbered up the track amid a hoofbeat clatter, its cloudy windows streaked by rain that fell in gentle patter. With duffle heavy on my back I trudged along the aisle Until I saw an empty seat next to a welcome smile. A stifled groan curled in my chest beneath the weight I bore; I shrugged the duffle off my back, it thudded on the floor. That pack looks awfully heavy friend he said with narrowed stare, You got a load of cinderblocks or something tucked in there? My gaze fell to the weathered bag, its corners taped and patched, the olive drab a faded grey, one canvas strap mismatched. I forced a smile that in my heart was anything but merry and through my gritted teeth replied Its just the things I carry. Perhaps it was the lonely night, the thunder and the rain, a sense of kindred friendship that I couldnt quite explain, but with a snap of rusted clip the duffle opened wide and reaching in I showed him all the things I had inside. A heavy armored vest was first, its kevlar torn and frayed the gaping hole stained dark with blood was caused by a grenade. My best friends life I whispered, fearing that my voice would crack; He gave it up to save me in the desert of Iraq. We grew up just like brothers ever since the age of nine, fishing up on Gradys Pond or flyin kites on twine, our first car was a Mustang, man we made that baby slide. He always calls me slick, I mean... he did until he died. A brick of granite followed, dark and grey as stormy sky, engraved upon its polished face, a date in mid-July. I wasnt home the day I lost my dad, I muttered low, remembering that awful day so many years ago. Our unit drew a line that month in deep Afghanistan protecting little schoolgirls from a bloody Taliban. My somber gaze fell to the floor and fixed on muddy shoes. Dad was gone two weeks before I even got the news. The silence hung a moment broken only by the rain, the beating of my heart over the rumble of the train, before I heard him ask about the thing I left inside, a mason jar that wads of dirty laundry failed to hide. Dont open that, I said too fast, my voice now tinged with fear. Theres things in there that, trust me, you dont ever wanna hear. I thought about the demons bottled up inside that jar; some things are better left alone... left just the way they are. Ive seen a lot of people die, and let me tell you friend, the sounds, the smells... I bowed my head, sometimes they never end. I dont know why the lid slips off, it mostly does at night; and it can take me hours just to get it back on tight. The man then spoke in earnest tones that tugged my memory, It seems a lot of weight to haul, but why I cannot see. What makes a fellah like yourself lug such a load of pain? A furrow crossed my tired brow, I struggled to explain. I spoke to him of duty, of the things a man just did, of old regrets that in the darkness of the heart lay hid; the ghosts of fallen friends you just cant bring yourself to bury, the bridges crossed and moments lost are just the things I carry. Instead of being saddened now he seemed a bit amused, I admire your resolve bub, but youve got it all confused; The memories youre sposed to keep arent those that weigh a ton, and handing me three items said Ill trade you one for one. The photo showed two lanky guys in t-shirts and blue jeans, both leaning on a Mustang like a pair of Steve McQueens. The memories came flooding back of racing round our home in an overpowered yellow wedge of spoilers and chrome. The letter was a short one folded carefully in thirds, my dad had never been a man of very many words; In careful print it said his greatest pride since life began was watching me grow up to be a soldier and a man. Through misty eyes I looked the last upon the ocean shell, if it had a hidden meaning Id be damned if I could tell. You know the trick, he softly said, just hold it to your ear, and listen to the things in life youve earned the right to hear. I heard the sounds of my home town where screams were shouts of cheer, as kids ran up and down the field without the need to fear; the ring of freedoms many voices blended in the air, the sound of open singing and the sound of open prayer. I turned to find an empty seat, just air and little more than dust that slowly settled down upon the wooden floor. Yet on that evanescence hung a voice I knew at last a whisper from my memory, an echo from my past: Remember slick, the way to honor those of us now gone; is searching for the best ahead in each and every dawn. Hold on to the good times, not the moments dark and scary, Im telling you to let em go... they arent yours to carry.
Posted on: Tue, 11 Nov 2014 21:29:21 +0000
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