There are some patterns that most autistic people share. Extreme focus on a subject of interest (my playing a certain game for an entire day, or reading a book in one long session, fixing an object that is broken until complete, ignoring sleep and food.) A level of detachment from emotional matters, though the degree varies. I still possess empathy and emotions, they are just very VERY subdued by comparison to normal folks. Many people have remarked that i seem Robotic. and at times that is probably true. I Seek to solve problems in a pragmatic, rational, and unemotional way so, yes it is, clinical or perhaps robotic. Traits like this, when you lay them out line by line, dont seem on paper as if they would be so crippling, so alienating and limiting, but in the real world even little differences matter. Even the little variations get you noticed. The guy with the mole on his lip will always be that to some people, forever and ever. That will color their interactions, perhaps its subtle affect will radically alter his ability to progress upward in his chosen career path. It could be that simple, and my condition is quite a bit more pervasive then one little physical deformity. It would be if not perfect, at least ideal, if difference was praised more in common encounters, less in tiny off shoot artist communes. If my brain could be recognized as a different operating system, a program designed for different tasks, and not uniformly compared to the existing archetypes and found lacking. “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.” It is attributed to to Albert Einstein but a disputed quote. The message should still resonate loud and clear. Were so many PEOPLE not standing in front of so many doors, i could open them all with my mind. But there is no ruthlessness in me. No desire to hurt or reduce for malice. I can only make a cold logical presentation of why you should, But you are not obligated to ever, Move.
Posted on: Mon, 11 Nov 2013 22:09:25 +0000