This is what pisses me off Vic, You cant even admit your wrong doing, and the fact that you tried so hard to prove to me you were someone else , is in the long run.. Your not, You were trying to prove to yourself that you cant and wont be anything but who you are ,,And to me that is a liar, a cheater, and a Drama Queen, And even if i was to believe anything you say to me i would at this point think that it was not the truth, To me you have now become the biggest POS i have ever know, , And i will no longer care or have any respect for anything you do,, You could and cant be honest with me or yourself, and you talk about respect, you have none from me,and i refuse to have any for you ,and this is the reason why... I will find out the truth myself and when i do, so help me GOD im gonna rub both your faces in it, Ive tried to be nice , but your evil and effortless ways has made me grown to really resent our meeting, and anything else i have shared with you. The bedroom was all an act and if i asked your new victim i bet our stories would be identical, You were a fake the whole time and all the shit about feelings and your crying were something of the demons that lived in your closet, from the wrong you have done me while we were together, I trusted you with my heart , and that is why i gave it to you , The scratching and clawing you done to my back while we made love was just another way for you to leave your mark, Maybe it became an addiction of my own to see and feel what no woman has ever done, the fact that you done it so well made me wanting more and more. I dont know anymore if I love you ,or have become obsessed with you, Remember ( Rejection causes Obsession ), and that is something you are so good at, and you do so effortlessly i think it has become an everyday routine in any relationship that you have had or will have. For some reason i think a lot of the things you tell someone ,that in the end when you decide to leave that it inflicts more damage on them and it brings you great pleasure to see other people hurt from your doing, Your wall is thick and wide, but it only blocks you from seeing the damage you left behind,,, And if this is what you think that the men of our generation need to go through to make them a better person you are wrong, Its women like you who ruin it for the decent and real woman to get the love they deserve, because the man she is now sharing her life with is so scarred from the emotional and mental abuse you put them through that now this woman will suffer from the damage you left behind.. So please Vic all i ask of you is to tell every man you plan on doing anything with that they need to read and sign the LIABILITY form before they get involved, because dealing with you may cause long term effects Mentally and Emotionally, The physical marks you leave on them will heal in time but the one deep inside the hearts and soul will be constant reminders of the woman they should of left behind them and walked right on by. and never looked back, and fought off any temptations to do otherwise. If i could do it all over again I probably would do it again,and the only reason why is ,because now i see how you work, and with the skills and knowledge that i posses. i would have hit you with a double dose of your own infectious love, and sent you on your way ti endure the pain and agony of what you planned on doing to me the whole time... And that is to know im suffering but to cowardly to watch me go through it, and own the fact that it was by your sting of rejection, dishonesty ,.and lies, that you created this man of hate, resentment , and Disgust, that i ever trusted you with something i knew never to give to anyone again, and that was my heart... I hope all the people that you have hurt in this way, every scenario in your life passes before your eyes right before you take your last breath.
Posted on: Fri, 01 Nov 2013 07:00:42 +0000