This morning I have sat here drinking my coffee and done some serious thinking about a lot of things. I have been through some things in my life that no one knows about. People can sit here and tell me I know everything to know about you well you dont. I can say that as fact. I do not claim to be perfect. I do not claim to be something I am not. Over my years people always thought I was one type or the other. I was nothing like they made me out to be. In fact I am really a nice person. I am the type of person that would do anything for her friends or family. I would go to bat for them and help them out if I can. I wear my heart on my sleave as many have pointed out. I am easy to get a long with and try not to argue with people. That alone is hard to do, I got a temper. Maybe because I am so nice to people is the reason I have been Lied to, cheated on, push around, hit, been someone’s sick joke of game. So sitting here thinking I have realized that if I want my dream of finding someone that loves me and my kids, that wants the same things I do in life: a family, home, marriage, support. Then I need to stop with things in my life and just do what my heart feels inside. I am so tired of the lies and games. I want to smile and be happy in my life. So I am going to go through my friends list on here and start deleting people. I am done with things that have been going on. I am done letting some people take me down. I am deleting people I don’t talk to, that hurt me, that I just want to delete. I am also going to start being to myself. If you inbox me fine I will talk to you. But other than that I may from time to time post on peoples comments. But for now I need to put walls up and be to myself. I can only trust a handful of people in my life. Which is sad if you think about it. I am sorry if people get mad or pissed that I am putting these walls up around me. I wont say sorry cause really this is my life and I have a right to do as I feel.
Posted on: Wed, 24 Dec 2014 15:42:24 +0000
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