Today we celebrate a birth. A savior and a man. Today is meant to be joyful. Today, our clan mourns a death. The medicine people tell me that it is the same door--birth and death. I like thinking about it that way. When Jenny transitioned to the spirit world, I immediately felt joy--joy for her; joy for the suffering which had stopped. It was a pure emotion; like nothing I have ever felt. However, it reminded me of the feeling I had at sundance when the dancers came out of the arbor after 4 days. That was joy as well. That was amazing, Steve Eutzy Stonearrow, Krista McGhee, Jeff Litishin, Dawn Runge, Mari Kaye, Jabez W. Churchill, John Nupa, Tonya, Randy and all the others-- thank you for that. Im learning how to celebrate this transition. Im learning not to intellectualize the feeling but to trust and rely on it. Jenny is right there. So are many others. I was at a sweat where a man named Rudy told me to smile at the spirits when you see them. He said when you see them, not if you see them. That makes all the difference. I dont know if I need a savior. I dont know much about that. I do know that I need to rely on a power greater than myself. And so I do. Today, I got up and put Oasis on because I was drawn to this lyric from their song Wonderwall. I dont know exactly what they are talking about in this song, but I love it and I know what it means to me: All the roads we have to walk are winding; And all the lights that light the way are blinding; There are many things that Id like to say to you, but I dont know how. Because maybe youre gonna be the one that saves me; And after all, youre my wonder wall. Merry Christmas everyone!!!
Posted on: Thu, 25 Dec 2014 13:28:37 +0000
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