Welcome one and all! Not only is the journal giving me something to do, but it is also staving off this horrid boredom I suffer. Anyway… let’s see, what to type about? Could be anything, I guess… Okay so my average writing speed is seven words per minute, when hand writing. The average for someone of my ‘level’ is 25 words per minute. This is because I suffer from dyslexia and dyspraxia. Which is something I’d always suspected I’d had, well the dyslexia anyway. But I got officially tested and it was a sort of epiphany moment. It explained a lot, like why I couldn’t tie my shoes until I was in year 5, that’s right folks I was ten when I finally figured it out. Now as it turns out, I actually suffer from dyspraxia more than my dyslexia, which explains why I love English so much. I have had to use it to compensate for the fact I can’t complete such tasks as tying my shoes up, instead I would have to communicate verbally in order to get the thing done. But I am strangely asphyxiated with the English language, I take great joy in researching semiotics, I love essay writing and reading. Though I struggle and it will take me the longest time to read a book; constantly having to go back to re-assimilate information. My writing will often become incoherent as I will lose focus and forget what I wanted to write- Dyslexia and the like are caused by the fact that one cannot easily create short term memories to commit them to long term, which is why I am so much slower at processing information and learning. This also makes it harder for me to follow simple instructions, especially if there are many to take in. I also cannot read punctuation and therefore cannot put it to good use. Basically, my grammar sucks. What little of it you do see me use, has had either a lot of thought and time go into it or not enough. Though it is through writing, that my thoughts find any sort of clarity, as both the dyslexia and dyspraxia make me clutter (which is like stuttering, but instead my brain goes into overdrive and I stumble over myself, I often have to stop myself to gather my thoughts and then continue.). It however does not benefit me at all when communicating with people online, nor over the phone. For one, I will often find it difficult to keep up and secondly if I have not physically met you and become familiar with your face, I find it incredibly hard to comfortably communicate with you. The way I have learnt to interact with people is through their body language and facial expressions, simply because I’ve had such a hard time understanding language. It really messes with my head that I can’t see you; which actually really ‘sucks’ for me, because I love playing online games such as Guild Wars 2 but I avoid making friends, rending the experience kind of pointless. Many that know me would, probably disagree and say I am a great communicator, but these people are mostly people I will have met face to face, or I have put in a lot of effort to keep up with- if they are online. Also, the dyspraxia makes me very clumsy as it means I have poor spatial awareness, anyone who has walked in front of me can testify to this, as I often accidentally kick the back of people’s feet… also accidentally hitting people. It also means that I can’t do sport, well I can but I am awful at it. Though I guess if I were to practice enough I might be okay, but it would take me forever and I was already put off of it since Primary School: Nothing like feeling inadequate and stupid at such an early age. Being told that I have something was… nice? I mean, it explained a lot. But really I have lived my whole life with this and I think I have come very far, in terms of my capability. But there is still quite a bit holding me back that I need to confront and deal with. And now that I know more about what ails me, I can approach each problem with more understanding. But yeah I guess that is it, I just needed something to fill time before I have to go out so yeah… thanks for reading if you got this far. xD https://youtube/watch?v=yZ_4o_lEIAA
Posted on: Thu, 26 Jun 2014 07:58:23 +0000
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