Well, Hello all my FB friends & family!!!! I have a lot on my mine this year! So I thought if you all will give me 10 mins of your time I like to tell a store! Now I want to tell this store, not for the purpose of pitied or any one feeling sorry for me! I’m telling this store in hopes I can help or inspire one soul!!!!!!! Where so we start??? I guess it all starts back in late 2012 when we all lost a very close friend more like a sister to all of use... now she very young 40ish (I’m Shure she is smile at that) and lost her fight with ovarian cancer! Now things happen in life that we react to some better than others. As I react to her passing, as I and most of use all did step back and reflected on our lives. However my life really did change, brushing it of as that sad but will not happen to me in my immediate life.(wish I would have stopped and thought about that one harder)this is the start of string of events that has spun out of control! The decisions me make today will affect all of use in weeks, mouths, and year down the road! Now after going through a very bad break up in my relationship! I often wonder if I would have thought about what life has showed me, it would have been that bad. Now for all that have known me ,I buried myself in my career (believe me when I tell you it is a dream career) passing up all kind of life moments, family, friends, holiday,birthdays,boo-boos,school etc. This is the group of people (family) I trusted with my life!!! Then came the big one (do not ever say to yourself “it will not happen to me”) believe me it will! My then 17 year old daughter Shawna diagnosed with rare form of cancer (small cell ovarian cancer) Dr. Give her 18 mouths! Sit me down! I could not believe what I was hearing. Talk about life moments! Now at this point I’m just crushed! But like I said we all must react! And did , now I began a juggling act between my daughter needs and my “ dream career” I chose to keep working 50+ hours a week to give her mother the freedom to take care of Shawna as need . Now I must tell you that she and I have not been together for15+ years. She been remarried to what I thought was a good guy!! My thought was to keep on top of my game in my career and give her opportunity to leave her job to do nothing but focus on Shawna! At the beginning it was work as good as it could! Yep here come a another life moment (SMH) it’s not my store to tell, out of nowhere , my 2 daughter and their mother was ask to leave there house right be for Shawna was to have high-dose chemo and stem cell replacement ! That was idk November 2012. So what did I do REACT! Without even thinking about it I just told her do not sweet it you all can just move in to house! SMH LOL!!!!!!!!!!! We just needed to do the best thing for the care of not just Shawna but some where we forgot Courtney! See how life choices keep changing everything! Now the stem-cell takes2.5 mouths in all-children’s hospital! At which time I’m driving 2.5 hours all most daily to be with Shawna then 2.5 hour back to work a lot of nights and take care of Courtney!!! By this time I know it’s getting very hard on the folks that I work for. With my crazy schedule not knowing what tomorrow brings or quite frankly how I was thinking. I was the leader of 300 employees!!! I have all way said I have big shoulder I can deal with it!!!!!! Ok let’s jump forward it’s now sept 2013 finally looks like light at the end of the tunnel!!!!!!!!!! Shawna is home doing as well as can be, moms back to work, and Courtney is in school!!!!!!!!!!! Hhhhhhhhhhhhh here comes again one of life’s moments (SMH) this one was hard. I but all I had in to my career!!!!!!! Losing so much on the! They had enough position eliminated!!!! Are you kidding me (omg) so now I have to REACT again, I cannot I’m just so burned out physically mentally and emotionally! Keep in mind I have never been without a job in 25 years!!! But the last 16 mouth has worn me out!!!!!!!!! So I guess I get there point of view. But then again I cannot believe they stop believing me!!!!! (SMH) it’s funny in 4 months now I have not heard from not 1 person in the career family not 1?? Now let’s move to today Shawna is doing well (let’s all hope it stay this way) yes still unemployed, bills still mounting! We have not had thanksgiving and charismas in two years! Due to lack of money we had no thanksgiving this year! Shawna actually just stared a new job to help pay some bill! You go Shawna!!! I told the girl I will do whatever it takes to make Shure they have a charisma!!! Here come a anther life moment (SMH) now remember we talked about a bad break up and we have not had charismas in 2 year! Well today was the first time in two years I went in to the addict to get charismas thing, thing we have been collected for the last 16 years ever since the girls could remember Santa Claus. Well it was all gone (SMH) apparently during bad break up she thought it would be ok to take all the girl charismas thing with her (SMH)! It’s ok though I spent the whole day getting it together for them! You should have seen the smile on their face tonight!!!!! One word AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok I guess I’ll stop rambling and get to the moral of the story. A man I know which I look up to a lot once told me to be happy you must be HUMBLE and that is ever easy to lose sight of!!!!!!!!!!!! Do not but all you have in a career or job!!!!!!! You must have time and energy to in joy life!!!!!!!! Only trust the one you love no one else!!!!!!!!!!!And never take life or today for granted!!!!!!!!! Like said not looking for sorrow just hoping to touch one soul in need!! Please share this with every one you know every one help me help that one soul!!!! Thank you for listening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ps I must say there have been a lot of great people on the way and I say thank you to all you
Posted on: Thu, 05 Dec 2013 07:05:09 +0000
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