i SIT HERE THINKING BACK THROUGH MY LIFE.Memories of mom dieing when I was three and a half and feeling like my whole family left as far as aunts and uncles were except for the two who I wished would have went away I think of being called names at school, made fun of, and alot of things others know nothing about. Given the choice to go back to school, get a job or get married at sixteen and a half, with just two years to go for my diploma. I chose marriage as it was a situation of too much pain at homke, at the hands of my stepmother, my uncle next door. I think about being told why cant you get as and bs like so and so does, are you that stupid, etc.an art teacher who said I would never be able to draw, an english teacher who said I couldnt write a simple book reoprt. one put down after the other. t Then I think about a conversation just a couple weeks ago I had with someone I love dearly Why must you always think of the negative side, why not think positive, OK I CAN DO THAT 1.I AM POSISTIVE NO THREE AND A HALF YEAR OLD SHOULD HAVE HAD TO LOSE A MOM AT THREE AND A HALF AND HER DAD AT 17 2.I AM POSITIVE THAT HAD MY STEPMOTHER BEEN A SUPPORTIVE PERSON I MAY HAVE COMPLETED HIGH SCHOOL 3.I AM POSITIVE IF EVERYONE WOULD HAVE BEEN SUPPORTIVE OF ME BEFORE I WAS MARRIED PERHAPS I WOULD HAVE BEEN A SUCCESSFUL BUSINESS PERSON 4.I AM POSITIVE THAT I COULD HAVE GOTTEN AS AND BS HAD I NOT HAD TO GET UP AT SIX A.M. TO TEND CHICKIENS, RABBITS ETC, HURRY TO GET READY FOR SCHOOL, COME HOME TO CHANGE INTO OLD CLOTHES AFTER THE BEATINGS FROM MY STEPMOM BECAUSE SOME ANIMAL SPILLED THEIR WATER,TO GO OUT FEED AND WATER ALL, GATHER EGGS ETC., COME IN TO SET TABLE, EAT DO DISHES SWEEP FLOOR, ETC. NEVER MAKING NO TIME FOR ME TO BE A NORMAL CHILD TO DO MY HOMEWORK FIRST,. I WOULD HAVE HAD BETTER GRADES THAN THAT SPOILED ROTTEN PERSON SHE SPOKE OF 5.I AM POSITIVE HAD THAT ART TEACHER NOT FOCUSED ON JUST THE RICH KIDS OR STRAIGHT A STUDENJTS AND SHOWN US OTHERS , WE COULD HAVE DRAWN AS GOOD OR BETTER THAN THEM 6.i AM POSITIVE AFTER GETTING ARTHRITIS OF THE SPINE OVER FORTY YEARS AGO BEING TOLD I WOULD BE IN A WHEEL CHAIR WITHIN FIVE YEARS, I DIDNT WANT TO GO THERE, POSITIVE THAT MY GUARDIAN ANGELS MIKE AND MO0NICA MADE ME FEEL I COULD ACCOMPLISH THINGS, GIVING ME THE CHANCE TO BE A WAITRESS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, A PREP COOK, DINNER COOK, BREAKFAST COOK, AND LUNCH COOK. 7.i AM POSITIVE AGAIN, THOSE TWO PEOPLE, FRIENDS AND GRANDCHILDREN WERE THE REASON I WROTE POETRY TO PROVE THAT ENGLISH TEACHER WRONG, AS I HAV E HAD TWO POEMS PUT TO SONGS,HOLD THREE COPYWRITTEN BOOKS OF POETRY AND HAVE WELL OVER NINE THOUSAND OTHERS LAYING AROUND HERE AND THERE NOT COPYWRITTEN. 8.I AM POSITIVE HAD I BEEN SHOWN SUPPORT AT A YOUNG AGE WHENI TESTED TOP OF THE CLASS FOR A SPELLING BEE FOR THE STATE I C OULD HAVE DONE IT, NEVER REMEMBERING EVER BEING ABLE TO BE IN A SCHOOL PLAY , OR TO GO TO A SCHOOL DANCE, OR A BALLGAME EXCPET FOR THE YEAR MY BROTHER KEPT ME AND TOOK ME TO MY FIRST AND ONLY SOCK HOP.OR MY MARRIED FAMILY TAKING ME TO MY FIRST FOOTBALL GAME 9.I AM POSITIVE MY GRANDCHILDREN ARE PROUD OF ME OTHERWISE WHY WOULD THEY HAVE EXCELLED IN ART ,OR WRITING STORIES IN SCHOOL TO BE LIKE ME? i HAD THREE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN, ONE HAD SIX PERFECT ATTENDANCE AWARDS, ONE THREE OR FOUR AND THE OTHER ONE ONE, OF WHICH HE AND HIS SIBLINGS ALL HAD ONE THE SAME YEAR, ALL THREE HAD HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMAS. 10.I AM POSITIVE THAT MY OLDEST GRANDDAUGHTER STUDIED TO GET HER GED AFTER ONLY HAVING A TENTH GRADE EDUCATION, MY SECOND GRANDDAUGHTER PUT HERSELF THROUGH SCHOOL THE LAST TWO YEARS TO GET A DIPLOMA AS DID MY OLDEST GRANDSON. 11.i AM POSITIVE NO MATTER WHAT AGE AN AUNT,OR UNCLE IS MY CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN SHOW THEM THE RESPECT THEY DESERVE NOT CALLING THEM BY THEIR FIRST NAME 12.I AM POSITIVE ALTHOUGH I NEVER KNEW GRANDPARENTS, I AM A GOOD GRANDMA AND LOVED 13.I AM POSITIVE THAT I WOULD PASS A GED TEST IF I SO DESIRED BUT DONT WANT IT, FOR I WOULD HAVE TO HAVE A CAP AND GOWN TOO 14.i AM POSITIVE I never held it against anyone for not being there for me,positive i loved them unconditionally,and positive after all these years A. I am a survivor B.I am a great person C. I am rich not with material things but with the love of friends So therefore, I am positive I have made a success of my life, more than I can say for the negative person who never found the time to say I love you when i SAID IT FIRST, NEVER SAID i AM PROUD OF YOU FOR THE ACCOMPLISHMENTS YOU HAVE MADE BUT CAN ONLY SAY YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS OR THAT,JUST CALL ME THE EDUCATED AMERICAN INDIAN DECENT HILLBILLY WHO IS PROUD OF WHAT SHE HAS DONE AND WHO SHE HAS BECOME
Posted on: Mon, 29 Sep 2014 21:38:11 +0000
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