my step son wrote on here the other day that you cannot have worry an faith in your heart at the same time,it diffentant left me with alot to think about, i have spent a lifetime being paraniod an scared cause of all the pain i have had to endue i had put up a wall agaist people i had changed an become someone i did not even know an put up a front so i would be accepted by others or they would liike me, well that wall is down, i like me, i ike what i believe,i have alway believed in god an the bible i even put that away not anymore, i have always believed in for giveness an second chances an family the pain that others put on me i survived an it made me a better person, i choose to live the rest of my life beliveing more so than ever that nothing or no one crosses your path that god has not put there for a reason. My life is exactly how he chooses it to be an i have faith he will carry me through whatever comes my way. i have spent to long handing pieces of myself off to others an throwing them away or hiding them for fear of what people will do or say. i gave up so much of me an it changed nothing, no one loved me more, liked me more, accepted me, respected me. As i told my husband i gave of being hugged an affection for him just because he had touchy feely problems an that was even wrong i have lived 17 years hardly ever being hugged, that changed a while back he is now required to hug me no matter how scared he is of it. i am a realist always have been, never been someone who said oh my kids wont do that or that will not happen to me, i live in the real world in real time in the here an now, I learn from eveything that comes my way good or bad, i am ever changing an evolving. never been one who made a comfort zone created a bubble an got stuck there. but i have worried an worried cause i just could not get to the point to have faith that all would be ok. I choose today to replace worry with faith for the remainder of my life.
Posted on: Thu, 12 Sep 2013 15:54:37 +0000
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