A Reflection on the last couple years... Our family has endured many trials this last year. In October of 2013, our son Christian woke up unresponsive with his eyes rolled back and all I can remember is holding him in my arms – crying out to God not to take my little boy. As the ambulance rushed our son to the hospital, Jessie was at the hospital getting a routine check up with our daughter Sophia, who was born with a rare Jewish Genetic Disorder that requires her to be under surveillance by a dietician and geneticist. I did not want to call Jessie, already being stressed over our daughter’s condition, but had to let his mom know that he was being rushed to the hospital. The next few weeks that turned into months were a slew of major medical life and death decisions that we would have to face. Christian would show immediate progress and then completely decline. It’s like our walk with the Lord. Sometimes we are on fire with the Lord and others we question his very existence. Not that I ever doubted the Lord, but sometimes I struggled with the fact that I have always tried to do everything right and just questioned why everything in our lives was falling apart. I just wrestled with God and the fact that my son would even live to see another day. Nothing mattered to me anymore! I could care less if I lost my business, driving new cars, even if I could pay my mortgage or keep my clients. I just wanted my son to recognize his father and say daddy again – to be able to just realize that I was by him – praying for God to heal his frail body. Do you know how it feels to have your son in front of you and for him not to be able to recognize or acknowledge you in the room? Yet, he would call for me – and I would hold his hand and assure him that daddy was not going to leave his side. It was heart-wrenching for me and to this day still haunts me. After a few months, Christian would undergo many procedures that would include six plasma transfusions and so forth – don’t even want to think about it. Then go through months of therapy ranging from speech, occupational, behavioral, and physical therapy. Christian was a very independent child and having to now do everything for him was difficult to deal with. I really thank the support of family and friends as we went through this difficult time in our lives – but most of all I thank Jesus for saving our son from the brink of death. He is our everything and I stand on the verse that says “But as it is written, Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God has prepared for them that love him.” – and that verse became real to me during this very difficult time in our lives. It’s amazing to me how real those verses become and how alive they become when we go through tough times in our lives. They become our refuge, our strength, and our hope! One thing is true, Jesus is still doing a great work in our lives and we just want to surrender to his great power and hope. God is on his throne! May we continue to yield to God’s sovereignty and know that He has greater plans for our lives than we could ever plan on our own. Although, Christian is not a 100% back to normal and struggles with the basic tasks, we are his loving parents and continue to pray for his complete healing. We ask that you continue to pray for us for God to give wisdom and strength as the challenge of raising four children, two with special needs is never an easy task – but we love and cherish our children and as long as God gives us breath in our lungs we will continue to raise our children in the love and admonition of the Lord. I have to say that I have the best wife a man can have. She is the strongest woman of faith that I know. She stood by my side as we made decisions about our children with faith in God-that He was going to give me the wisdom I needed to make the right decisions. She held me accountable when I could no longer walk by faith, but struggled with my faith as I saw my son lying on the hospital bed. God has truly blessed me with a great and loving wife. I know this is a random post, but as we approach these holidays, I took some time to reflect on God’s faithfulness in our lives. So I post this to remind us all. Please whenever you have a minute to keep us in your prayers, as we pray for you too. God is faithful and will NEVER give us more than we can handle. We love you – The Czelusniak Family John, Jess, John Matthew, Gavin, Christian and Sophia
Posted on: Mon, 15 Dec 2014 05:40:14 +0000
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