A friend of mine shared her struggle publicly and it really helped me and inspired me to share mine in hopes it helps someone else too. As of I think three months ago? I chose to not drink anymore. Let me say this I do NOT think drinking in moderation is wrong at all. I do think in some way it was wrong for me, a personal conviction. I can get crazy and say things I dont mean or act unbecomingly. It has been hard. Its hard to not be involved in things I used to be involved in and going out to grab a glass of wine or two or three lol just to visit and catch up with friends. I feel like such an outsider. However, I know this is what Im suppose to do. Theres a irreversible tug on my heart I cant ignore. There have been moments of loneliness and sadness from not being apart of treasured events. I still dont know quite what God is calling me to. All I know is a sober life for reasons He hasnt showed me yet. I do know I had to redefine what fun meant to me. Ive realized I still can have fun just in different ways and Im still learning and when I feel like this isnt fair or this is too extreme I just pray and draw closer to The Lord and then it hits me this is my calling to simply draw nearer to Him. He wants my attention for now and the rest? I dont know yet. There is it though thats my struggle thats my truth. This is what Im dealing with and Im so grateful for His pulling in my heart and I trust the direction of it to Him completely.
Posted on: Wed, 06 Aug 2014 21:27:30 +0000
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