A note written by a beautiful friend. Just another journey... I recently went for my yearly follow up..and positive as always...if someone told me my cancer would return, I wouldnt have believe it...I was sure i would never have to go through that hell again...3 weeks ago when my oncologist told me its back and spread to other organs...I was scared out of my mind! I remember a couple of weeks before that, I was sick and asked God to take me away then to endure the suffering, assuming the side effects making me so sick...for two months the same draining symptoms...you would think a person would be more alert going through such an ordeal...I am over the fear, I did it once and I will do it again and again and again until cancer decides to leave my body for good!Im want my life back, Im tired of being sick...what amazes my is the family, friends and colleagues, supporting and loving me from the start...Thank you Lord for all these amazing people, even strangers!I could never understand why Claudio choose to come live with me, Im so much closer with his older brother...he didnt it was all part of Gods plan...and we couldnt understand why he cant find a job with all these applications...it makes sense now...I pulled away from a lot of people after my first diagnosis and treatment...even move to Paarl...God knows exactly what we need and when we need it...with Claudio here I can relax knowing my kids are taken care of and him helping wherever he can...I have one of my best friends taking care of me an and my kids!My prayer is that God will give him strength and wisdom and guide him and the rest of our family and his friends would be there for him...its not an easy journey...aand I know he dont like sick people,he will need a lot of support...Claudio I am so proud of you,sticking it out so far...*and I look at you with new respect...You are my hero and God have great plans for your life(Jer 11:29)!Neville being my chauffeur and great friend that you are...just being there for me means a great deal to me and God will reward you for everything you do my friend!Hes got your back, hang in there,this is your season! My journey is only beginning again and sitting 05:35 in the morning wide awake in my lounge,feels great...I am blessed,have no idea what the rest of the day or the rest of my journey holds for me...but I am grateful to God and the most amazing people that I got in my life... I got my first chemotherapy session yesterday and it went very well...a bit longer then I expected..but I have a great doctor,a friend and God uses him amazingly, may he be blessed more with his great talent and determination to make a difference!I am just going to take it one day at a time and trust God completely to guide me on this journey...what He has done for me before He will do for me again and this time my latter will be greater...I believe that God will heal me completely and my testimony will be so great, jy moet dit glo! I wont lie...I was confuse and angry that my cancer came back and I asked God why... for a moment...and I got over it, everything happens for a reason and God is still the same Being that carried me thus far and I dont believe for one minute that hed brought me thus far to leave me!And some might even think that if God loves you so much, why would allow all these suffering and pain, if He is so powerful, why not just take it away? It would be easy yes and that thought ran through my mind already...and I dont have all the answers, I just know that He loves me so much that He gave His only son to die alone on a cross for you and me...and whenever I go through trials and tribulations, its makes want to be a better person then before, it builds my character and I appreciate every little thing more... I am grateful to God and with every stumbling block in my life my faith increase, because the more I depend on my Maker the easier life becomes! God is everywhere we just to blind to see...you didnt wake up by accident, make today your day,it might be your last, make it worthwhile for someone else, we have know idea what burdens they carrying!Just have a heart, we are so into our own issues we dont even notice the pain and suffering of our neighbour and yet we claim to love our neighbour like we love yourself!Jesus loves you more then you can imagine...allow yourself to feel that and it will open up aaa whole new world for you!And through all that negativity grab the positivity to solve the issue!Now Im off to bed!
Posted on: Tue, 29 Oct 2013 11:06:31 +0000
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