An apology and some suggestions: 2014 has proven so far to be more challenging for me than I had hoped. My focus was on travel and of course the continuation of my health and fitness journey. I have found my goals have been unrealized so far this year. My Ortho misdiagnosed my hip pain in August 2013 ~ it was not bursitis. I have a growth between 2 discs in my spine, L4 & L5 and a little something starting on the L3. As a result, I have had ever worsening and debilitating pain and numbness making it hard to stand or walk. I am not writing this to complain, but rather to share a few thoughts/suggestions. 1) If you dont feel like your doctor is helping you, dont let them intimidate you into thinking you are wrong, even if they say You are wrong. Go get a second opinion! 2) Heres the apology: If you know me well, you know that I am normally the energizer bunny, and not one to sit still; it makes me crazy. Well, I apologize for my lack of communication and the many times I have declined invitations. I am quieter than normal because it takes every ounce of energy I have to go to work and not let anyone see how much pain I am in, especially my clients. This coming Friday I meet with my Neurosurgeon where I fully expect to hear that I need spine surgery. This scares me to no end. No it is not life threatening and doesnt require long treatments like my friends battling cancer. But, I am aware how surgery on your spine is serious stuff. I know that medicine has come a long way and the percentages are in my favor for a favorable outcome. That I only have a 5% chance of something serious going wrong. But understand, I only had a 1% chance of having twins. (They are the best thing that ever happened to me). There was a slim chance of something going wrong with Lasix...uh, 3 surgeries later I am wearing glasses. So... for now, I have cancelled all plans for travel and the one that hurts the most is my fun trip to Texas to go storm chasing (tornado chasing with a camera) and zip lining in the canyon, not to mention spending time with my boyfriend Steve. Now I come to 3) if you are waiting to do something you really want to do - DONT. You may never get the chance. Find a way to do it without causing harm to those around you. In other words, dont be selfish in that you dont do the right thing by your spouse or kids, just find a little me time. You will find your loved ones will benefit from it too. I expect after my recovery period to once again get back to the gym, continue eating healthy and having more energy to spend hiking with Kyle & Emily, Tyler & April and enjoying my new grandchild. As for my photography - it has been a wonderful diversion while unable to do much other than sit. I cant wait to be able to climb and crawl and get all the shots I really want to take. Of course, I need to learn SO MUCH MORE than I have already to make the most of them. I suspect I will be taking many pictures of a certain baby. Wishing I could fast forward to the good stuff. Thanks for understanding why I am not myself right now.
Posted on: Sat, 22 Mar 2014 13:57:14 +0000
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