And yall I have changed in the past 6 months especially in the past nearly 3 mths after my shoulder got injured like it did! I am still the same but I have changed as well. I wont ever be the same person that I once was for many reasons! Lord knows that I am NO saint. The hardest part about all of this isnt the pain I felt the night it happened, the fear that I felt, the pain of surgery,the countless nightmares that I had and still do, the pain of Physical therapy, the crying, the wondering if Ill ever get my full range of motion back, the pain I feel on a daily basis, the throbbing in my bones, my neck even my back, my shoulder blade, the talking behind my back, the jokes, the calling me stupid (which Im NOT stupid) calling me a weak person because I DID NOT do what was expected of me but instead showed sympathy,mercy,compassion towards someone who did hurt me no doubt I done in my heart what I thought was right instead of what was expected. Well that is who i am as a person and that does not make me a weak person or stupid. To me, it takes a lot of strength to show love rather than hate. And I will go on ahead and throw this out there as well..When I was 5 I was abused and I survived that without destroying my life so ,point is im not a weak or stupid person, but I have this ability to be good,nice,loving,and a softness towards anyone that may hurt me. Do i get angery HELL yea I do but I show my compassion as well. SO anyhow....although that stuff has been hard the things that have going on since my broken dislocated arm.....the hardest part is the war that has been going on between my head and my heart!
Posted on: Mon, 07 Oct 2013 06:15:05 +0000
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