As I sit here waiting for the movie to start I think back to 15 years ago... Its crazy that Mikayla is only 2 years younger then I was when I gave birth to her. I remember laying in that hospital bed around this time scared out of mind waiting for my aunt and younger cousin to arrive so I wouldnt be alone. The panic that set in when reality sunk in on just how unprepared I was to be a mother. Especially when I didnt really have a good example of what it meant to be a good mother. So I set out to be everything my biological wasnt... I tried for perfection. Looking back I see how naive I was although my heart was in a great place the added burden of being a dad as well was a lot on my shoulders. Tonight as I sit here next to my daughter its with kinder eyes towards myself. I see that I didnt fail her in fact she is one of my greatest accomplishments. Everyone who meets her compliments me on how kind and well mannered she is. Shes been an honor roll student more then she hasnt. Is 1 of 2 girls in her high school majoring in Auto Diesel and could care less about being popular because she walks to the beat of her own drum, honestly her confidence in herself leaves me in awe. So tonight not only do I celebrate her birth but mine as well into this crazy, complicated journey called motherhood. 💕
Posted on: Sun, 10 Aug 2014 02:08:38 +0000
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