Cant sleep...its 3 am and what am I bout to do? Not sleep..thatd be the logical thing...but the dishes! Which is kinda logical cuz then I dont have to do them later today! :) but I would still really like to be asleep right now...besides bein sick and jobless...I can say I am for theost part stress free...Im not stressin the little stuff anymore. Just bein happy! And I gotta say a lot of it has to do with realizing who was there for me this week when I was down and freakin out.. my church first off...word of life I sand springs! They have been so amazing and all the new people I have met it has just been so awesome to have a family outside of my blood family to turn to. Then theres my momma...I may fight with her and she May get on my nerves sometimes but at the end of the day I knkw what she does is for a reason and I know she loves me and has really helped by makin sure me and my kids are good and healthy through this hard time and I love her and my dad so very much!! Then my two special neighbors.... miss Tamie Ortiz...she is suppose to be my sisters bff..butt I stole her! :) she has helped me so much and knowing I have someone like her behind me is so awesome! And miss Lacey Watchous...now this female is goin the the Roughest tine and shes standin strong..yes maybe a few rough patches but considering the circumstances my rough patches wouldve been wayyyy bigger than hers if I was in her shoes. I love her and her babies so much! We May get on each others nerves occasionally...but we r girls..its what we do. And then my other friend who shall not be named just cuz people get the wrong idea.but anyways you know who you are and thank u so much for bein here..I know u prolly dont think ur doin much but u are doin a lot more than u know just bein here and bein a friend I know I can count on.you make the drive no one else will and you just help put my mind at ease that even tho its rough right now I have people behind me and Im doin good with the hand thats been dealt. You crush all the seriousness and u help find a brighter more funnier side of things.lol.love ya!! And last but most definitely not least I gotta thank God for even bringing these people to me and letting everyone play a part in the rough life that I am still finding myself in. And even if Im alone I know I still have God there..I may not be 100% listening just yet but Im gettin there.lol.its a process but he knows where my heart is and how to handle it.so Im not worried I am just so thankful that even though I have made a million mistakes god has my back still and I know a lot of my friends may think Im crazy...thats cool...but until u kmow that feeling that God is there..dont judge and if u havent felt it.its by ur own choice.not Gods. Even though I dont have all the nice things YET...I have my kids.my family.my friends.my church. And God behind me and Im so thankful that I have my kids and that they still love me even though I have made horrible decisions that have made them feel feelings that some people go a lifetime without feeling. But I have my babies and a roof, food, and friends, family, and god..so even though Im broke all the time...I still have everything I need! --ok my lil 3am session is over...lol.sorry so long.but when Im thinking it I gotta write it! Its like a weeks worth of posts in one so leave me alone! :)
Posted on: Thu, 17 Oct 2013 08:31:49 +0000
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