#Confession I will walk past you and avoid eye contact, those walls along the hallways become suddenly very interesting. I will type out a long facebook message and press backspace for the hundredth time because it just doesnt feel right. I tucked your memories away inside a red box I stacked under my books just to avoid catching a glimpse of it. I took down your sweater thats been hangin on my closet since forever. I stopped cooking those meals we enjoyed having together. I stopped checking my inbox. I folded your love notes in ways I would be too lazy to unfold them once again, but I know somehow I still would. I took our pictures away from my vision board because they make the future so blurry. This is how it goes. This is how I will get by. It may seem like I hate you for walking away from me for the nth time this time but I dont. And dont feel sorry. You cant be sorry for feeling the way you do. For wanting the things you want. And people may think Im not fine and you arent, but we are. Someday, you will find that person who will want you the way you want them to want you and that person will see all your flaws like paintings that are worth millions of dollars. I used to love the silence - our silence together. Eyes staring back at each other, hands clasped. I used to hate good night because it meant you leaving and me waiting for the next day to see you again. Now we share this silence, just silence this time and I must admit, I hate it. Now its time to say good night for the last time and I think weve always wanted this, somehow. I need you not to say anything even if you feel like it, I get the whole picture now. I know, I failed to see it for the longest time. You couldve given me more clues, you know. I need us not to re-open wounds, because I think I finally figured a way on how to stitch myself up on my own. I need us not to say it out loud because this is how we do it. This is how we say goodbye. And Im fine with it. Goodbye, old friend. Ill see you again soon and I might just be able to smile at you along the hallways. -dolphin
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 11:11:01 +0000
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