Day 1 of of 30 Dear Papi As I sit and contemplate Traveling on a journey to new beginnings I have come to The realization I need to forgive you For every moment you hurt That little girl Still haunted by a past Full of secrets hidden deep in my soul Clawing my way out Deep in an abyss Still Searching for redemption Where locked memories Are concealed With truths so hard to bare Lost to a time and place As the monsters under her bed Came to life Stealing my innocence Learning that my only savior Was myself as I lay Praying for my nightmare to end Such a young age I didn’t even know The definition of the words That would bleed from my pen Or realize the impact My story would have My pen Still cries from the inside out Putting words to paper Letting emotions taper Realizing poetry would be The only saving grace On countless nights While I prayed For you to come home All I remember Is awakening to slaps so hard On mami’s skin Her screams permeated the very air I breathe As my stomach curdled I swore I would never marry a man like you I never want to live in fear I want to love again Freely and Fully No longer afraid of giving myself completely Truth is I can’t take another person walking away I want to trust solely in the simplicity of a kiss Not run Feeling yet again love will abandon Every time It is close I can taste his words And smell his essence Draped upon my skin I RUN Hiding in fear Because that little girl reappears Scared and alone As my doubts appear I want to learn To live new resolutions Giving myself to total absolution Releasing control Without fear of the unknown I need to give birth to new chapters in my story Breathing hope into my life Living carefree and in the moment Free from retribution Or presumptions made on judgments On the woman standing before your very eyes Letting what’s meant to be Be solely Learning that everything in life happens And whether it was For a reason or a season My time has comes I now release my hatred in my heart Because in the in end while it’s not easy It will be worth it Papi I forgive you in order to love me LaPoeta
Posted on: Tue, 01 Apr 2014 21:47:43 +0000
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