Feeling very sad and reflective today. Cant stop crying. I think about my own selfish wants and needs but my thoughts always quickly turn to the Animals, we dont even appreciate them unless they think or act like us but what makes them so wonderful and so special is how unlike us they are. Their lack of a voice when it comes to communicating with us is what brings them so much torment. Would we still do what we do to them if they could cry out in words and beg for their freedom and lives? But their inability to communicate with us is what saves them too from being tainted, and keeps them the unique and wonderful beings they are from an elephant to an ant. All are so special. This post wasnt supposed to be about Animals. It was supposed to be about the people that I love. I love all my family, but only 3 have taken a journey with me that has affected the person that I am. In the beginning it was Mum and my sister Josette, but they are both lost to me now. I dont like to admit the pain my sister has caused me but Im feeling honest today. The 3 people who have touched my heart in a way I can never forget or repay are my wonderful partner Michael, my good hearted son Craig and my beautiful sister Annette. But even with Michael and Craig there are huge communication barriers. I often feel that they just dont see me. My sister Annette sees me. She sent me this message two days ago. She is my glue when everything else feels like it is falling apart. You know there are things about you in the last 10 years or so that I dont understand. You have changed. I dont know what the huge catalyst was....I do not believe it was Josette in herself. There had to be a culmination and Jo was the trigger. Whatever, who says new Tracy is any better or worse than old Tracy? Maybe she is just different, growing, learning, expanding, we all do that, hopefully. But one thing I know on this your beautiful birthday....I have never regretted you being my sister. Thank you dear heart for being in my life Thank You Annette.
Posted on: Sun, 13 Jul 2014 02:38:53 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015