Finally, I have zero interest in sharing my perspective and zero interest in publishing my book (I dont know if Ill ever publish it: right now I just dont care). I was on the fence about why the book mattered to me and I knew I had to let it go and just let it come back in the flow of life naturally. Now Ive let go of the need to publish it because I finally have absolutely nothing to prove. :) Every time I talk about healing (which doctors here can confirm, but has anyone wanted to confirm my story? Nope. LOL), there is someone that shows up to tell me it is not possible or assuming how we did it, rather than asking me how we did it. No one is interested in how weve healed because facing fear is horribly difficult. For 6 months I have shared my entire life publicly and my process for facing fear, and now I see clearly what a waste of time and energy it is. To be clear, I did it for me and no one else, to learn that no one in the world needs me (scary to consider when living in fear). Now that I fearlessly know that? I can completely focus on myself and have fun without guilt or regret. :D First I needed to help others, then I picked that apart and let it go. Then I needed to put the truth out there. Then I picked that apart and let it go. In a society where sickness is normal and others are dying to fit in, one can only focus 100% on self to experience healing and joy. Personal experience is the only true teacher there is and it is impossible to share an experience intellectually. Dont believe me - try explaining the experience of becoming a mother or father intellectually and try to understand it when someone else tries to explain it - impossible. Im done with this timeline. Be well, everyone. I appreciate everyones patience while I learned that *trying* to put the truth out there doesnt work.
Posted on: Mon, 02 Dec 2013 11:33:33 +0000