First Epistles of Timothy Chapters 1,2,3,4,5, & 6 Godly Dreams of True Moral Beauty By John D Lacambra What more do I have to endure in my test of faith? Everyone that I loved and have related to has left Still alone I stand without a tear or a drop of frett All for what in the first place did GOD bestow upon me so much suffering? What have I done to deserve such since my upbringing? Here I am and this is my last stand Even if it kills me I am just one Man Such blasphemous murderous things I have done and endured and commited shameful sins for a will that isnt even mine and to feed ungrateful sinful unloyal mouths I was once proud of All for the Holy Divine who is in control of everything including our time My name is John and I am just a rebel without a cause Lord what have I done? All my prayers to you were clearly unselfish since the day I was baptized and now I have nothing left But to choose to mourn and repent because I suffered unselfishly for a will not of my own Hearts desire The onse who used to be warming towards me are now cold and of stone I have done nothing unselfishly but suffered and endured this test of faith all for a will not of my own Hearts desire But I still stand a Man fulfilling my promise to you my GOD who I still Love and trust as I have turned to dust and disgust amongs the eyes and ears of my beloved peers Now I truly have nothing to loose Even time doesnt matter to me now As of whats the point of the snooze As I have suffered and endured unselfishly for a will not of my own Hearts desire For everyone I dearly Loved and cared for I am nothing anymore even if sticks and stones break my bones I could careless whatever happens now Lord You took everything from me like I have told you to do literally To use me even if it takes my very and honor to the most shameful degree amongs everybody... Everyone I ever Loved and cared for now thinks I am a monster A true lost cause all because I simply wanted to pursue an unselfish will not of my own Hearts desire I am only one man with 2 arms 2 legs and a head thats considered dead For the onse I truly loved and all this suffering for what Lord? To how much more longer do I have to withstand this master plan and face the tyranny of these evil selfish souless beings of man that I dearly Loved all now looks at me like some lost case far from importance and the most shameful level of legal decree... I havent tasted the sweet smell of freedom that you promised me GOD But stripped me of everything I ever Loved with nothing but material possessions as blessings from you high up above as I followed everything you told me to do and through it all I tested downfall after downfall to this very point that I truly have nothing left but a troubled Mind and Heart... On the tip of the last of passions that was full of life all before the very start of this test of faith in you my own blood have even fought against me with no one left to relate and you still continue to bestow upon me When will I be set free my Lord as I endure these sufferings for a will not of my own Hearts desire I am almost lost of hope as my voice is harsh and I can barely breathe as each breath is truly now a blessing to recieve All this suffering I have endured with yet not a single sight of guarantees or atleast 1 sign for me to be rest assured that my labors are not put in vain I am just one man... One man from the billions in this world... I was chosen to suffer all this my God? I never experienced a breath of fresh air these 25 years born with a deadly lung disease Im not supposed to be here... My health is impossible to restore as I have done nothing but help those of the poor including thats not of mine and even those clearly far more blessed than me All now point and laugh like I am the tree of stupidity All for a will not of my own Hearts desire So what more do I have really? What more do I have left? Here in this Godless filthy land of unshameful judgemental beings of man Without a care anymore like I promised from the beggining my Lord Even if it takes my life soon if you please choose I truly have nothing to lose now but still to you my GOD I bow All this for everybody who turned on me because of an unselfish will not of my own Hearts desire Even if my name is not encarved on stone I have nothing left to frett as I have long ago finished all I wept I have kept on persevering to the last of my mortal bodys abilities and simplest needs How much more do I have to suffer for this World who could careless about me as I am now a tick or even a flee the wrong and criticized one... Now I know you are not the one to kill me my GOD... As they Killed you... I am loyal and true to a point of royal purple and blue and before I depart if thats the plan for me... I did all this suffering for this Godless sinful place of disgrace with your will and wish of visions you bestowed upon me in my sleep which until now I still see as I close my eyes feeling I wont wake tomorrow All for a will not of my own Hearts desire Crowned Roses of thorns just please... Let me Dream the same dream one last time Dear Almighty GOD of Roses of mine... The dreams, the dreams, the dreams... The Dreams you gave me to see past the tip of Zion... One last time I want to visualize Even if it kills me... all for your will and your sacred Holy desire... for the children of your kingdom... Godly Dreams of True Moral Beauty #Middle Finger #Gone Fishing
Posted on: Mon, 10 Mar 2014 13:21:59 +0000
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