Fitness In Christ Week Sixteen: “My Soul Yearns for You” Welcome to Fitness In Christ, in your quiet time today here by this beautiful Ocean Take a moment to have an intimate conversation with God, your father and hear him speaking to your heart in this verse: “My Soul Yearns For You In the Night... In the Morning My Spirit Longs For You.” Isaiah 26:9 Dear Lord, I find myself just days before my birthday and I feel very contemplative over my past, over the possible years of regret and disappointment that your heart surely felt when you saw me make such grave mistakes...and yet your voice was always there...always loving...always chasing me. I thank you Lord as I write and begin to open my heart to all of my Fitness in Christ warriors I humbly ask you to bless each soul that is reading this, each soul that is yearning to have a connection...a deeper understanding of you Lord....a touching...a anointing of your love. Dear Heavenly Father I ask you in this moment to please bless this special time that we each have with you and that each heart that reaches out to you today be blessed. Lord wet our appetites to open to you in a new way...in a playful way...in a honest way.... We love you Lord and we lay all of our troubles, all our prayer requests at your feet and we ask you to please give us strength in letting go and letting you in. We love you, and all of God’s mighty warriors say together...Amen. When I was preparing week 16 I was very contemplative...probably because it was my birthday week and it really got to me thinking about my life, about my past, about everything that I tried to do--to run from God. Only to hear him screaming or lightly whispering to my heart...”Come home...” That is why this verse means so much to me. “My Soul Yearns For You In the Night... In the Morning My Spirit Longs For You.” Isaiah 26:9 I remember one night ten years ago after my accident I was really struggling, I felt so alone, I felt so vulnerable, I felt so lost. I was having a really hard time after I fractured my neck with my walking, & because of my brain injury I was having memory issues, I could not do the “simple” things I could do before. I lost all of my television and radio appearances...who wants a “crippled” trainer....I was all alone--- I had no family my twin came out and helped for a little bit but for the most part it was just me and some girlfriends and a few clients that helped me the best way they could. But for the most part my secrets of how I was going to walk and return to television and pay all these hospital bills was ever surmounting. I had huge financial issues- I had to sell my home and cars to pay my hospital bills, I was feeling like I had totally failed. Everything I had worked so hard to attain- I was losing all of it. My beautiful homes, my cars...all of it was going one by one....I felt a low unlike any I had ever felt before. I could not call out to anyone... I did not want anyone to know about the pain I was going through. Those were some of my darkest days....I contemplated even what or how my life made any difference to anyone.... that if I was gone maybe it would be best....I felt like I had failed myself and even greater that I had failed God. And then one night after I had some of my favorite wine....ok a whole bottle of it...I was really feeling all of my pain I felt a low so low all I could do is cry out to God....So I did the only thing that felt right in that moment and that was to get on my hands and knee’s and in my bedroom walk in closet I called out to God. I said, Lord if you are real, I need a healing, and I need it now. I begged him to reach down into my darkest spots and cleanse me. To lift all the darkness, all the shame, all the guilt, all the lost years and make me white as snow...to cleanse my body...and to lift my spirit. I will never forget this....I lay in my closet in Del Mar and cried and cried. All I wanted was to feel a spark, a tiny connection, a feeling of warmth of love to feel whole again. To feel at peace. To feel safe. And then just like that....I heard God speak to me. He said really simply, “I love you, I have always loved you and I will always love you.” “I chased you when you ran, I chased you when you stumbled, I have never left your side, you have never been alone.” “I will deliver you from this pain, all I ask is that you someday share your story with people...I want your life to inspire other’s to seek me” ‘I want your brokenness to help me open other’s.” So today I write this in black and white. I share with you one of my darkest moments And I share with you one of my greatest “God connections”. It was not at church, or surrounded by a bible study...it was a Saturday night at about 2 a.m. in my closet crying out in tears. If you have ever had a moment like this....a “coming to Jesus moment” you will never forget it. God does hear you and he does hear your cry. Amen.:) Now lets go back to the verse and let’s break it down one part and then the other. Let’s ask ourselves some questions and play around with this verse so it can really have meaning in our lives. Let’s start out with the first part... “My soul yearns for you in the night....” 1. Ask yourself have you ever experienced a yearning in the night? 2. What could night mean? Could it mean literally the night or could it also mean a dark pain, a loss so great no light in that moment could be possible? 3. What are some of your darkest moments you have had? Did you call out to God and if you did what happened? 4. Ask yourself could your loss or dark moment lead you to a deeper relationship with the Lord? Sometimes I have found in my greatest pain, loss or feeling’s of desperation---these were my greatest breakthrough’s with the Lord how about you? Take a moment to look back upon your life and see how God answered a prayer in a greater way for you.... Ok now let’s move on to the second part of this amazing verse and ask ourselves to probe deeper into what God could possibly want for us to see. Let’s read one more time: “In the Morning My Spirit Longs For You” Isaiah 26:9 As you read this verse again let’s try to bring new understanding to it, please ask yourself: What do you think “Morning” really means? Could it be more then just “the morning” could it be a new beginning? Could it be a renewed relationship with Christ? What does it mean to “Long for something”? What was the last thing you “Longed for”? Why do you think it would be important for us to “Long for God” first thing in the Am? So now let’s read it all as one and really apply everything we have just opened up: Week 16 With tons of love xoxo “My Soul Yearns For You In the Night... In the Morning My Spirit Longs For You.” Isaiah 26:9 Now as you walk along this beach today I want you to imagine God is whispering these words to you....He is telling you his soul yearns for you in the night....that in the morning his spirit longs for you. Can you believe we have a God that loves us so much he yearns and longs for us? He does!!!! I am living proof of this...I have felt this love. That is why I am so inspired to write about it. God does love you. He does hear your cries. You are Never alone. He yearns for you and longs for you in the morning to return to him. Now I want you to whisper to God...I want you tell him....that your soul yearns for him....that your spirit longs for him in the morning. Think about this tonight before you go to bed...think about yearning...seeking....asking...begging God to come speak to you, to sleep with you, to protect and safeguard your heart as you sleep. Then beg God to be by you in the morning...Long for him....Long for his voice...Beg him to bring you song and light as you awake....Sing to him...Praise him....Shout out and Celebrate him....Amen, NOW Please at your own pace, and by yourself, go stand or sit in silence for about 5 min reading through the the bible verse and simply allow the holy spirit to reveal a message of strength, conviction, hope, truth, light or a special message God has just for you. Then Kita will softly tap you on your shoulder to get your attention Just silently stand up and by yourself at your own pace begin to walk on the beach in a southern direction, together in silence- Please this is vital- NO TALKING. God desires a relationship with just you, he wants to speak to you with the ocean crashing and the seagulls flying over your heads to inspire and open each of your hearts and while you walk in silence please walk repeating and memorizing this verse in your heart. Then Kita will gather us back together for a 10 min mini bootcamp with core. Please continue to see God speak to you, then in a circle we will pray with each other and set individual spiritual, wellness and fitness goals for upcoming week. This week’s Mission if you so choose is: “Imagine God leading you through your “valley”, lifting you up and directing you to a happy, healing, peaceful, loving place. You must let go of everything “earthly” fix your eyes upon HIM and HE WILL deliver and Direct your path.’ Amen I love you:) Next week’s Goals: 1. Yearn for God in the Night 2. Long for God in the morning 3. Share your story of how God answered your prayer in the “night”. Amen
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