Havent been able to sleep right lately so much on my mind really in my feeling knowing that as this month is goin by in the blink of an eye soon will be January & iv been trying to cope smile laugh stay happy & stay strong & hide my tears with my brother passin that it hits me so deep in my heart being how close we were he always watch over me being the little sister if only i knew that those 3 months was goin to be his last but i kind of feel like when my brother came to live with me i felt like it was my job from god to watch over him i was watching out for my brother always going out checking on him making sure he alright making sure he eats and come home before midnight giving him money avery month so he could have gave him a phone to stay in contact with me man i truley felt like god was showing me something getting me prepaired for what to come i mean one sign after the next that same year right before newyears i went out to check on him vise rolled up deep thinkin he was sellin they checked him and a few other people didnt bother to check me even doe i had a purse a few few b4 that he got robbed gun point not once but 4 times this one time he almost didnt make it his ex girl friend set him up as soon as i saw my brother beat all up bleeding from his face broket eye socket couldnt walk i set by my brother crying my heart out telling him i need for him to stop that those are sign that God dont like what you are doin with your life he was willing to change but this one last time he wanted to make a little money that costed him his life that ended wrongfully on january 9th they say God shows all of us signs when he has had enough of us living a bad life and not willing to change to see if we do good by him and change our ways and the way we view and live before a mistake become to Late only lord knows how strong i have been all the pain iv been holding inside i have lost alot of peope i truely love & dont wanna lose anymore i love all my brothers sister family cusin and friends i dont wish bad on nobody or hate or jealousy or envy im just a happy person who likes to joke laugh and make friends and upload crazy stuff on facebook there is no reason too be hateful im trying to live my life right doin good by god i have a really good heart that loves dearly i may not say how much i love yall doesnt meant idont i may not write it but god knows my heart and what it holds inside and thats love :( feeling sad
Posted on: Fri, 12 Dec 2014 15:14:30 +0000