Hey guys take a second a d read this this goes out to anyone in recovery or still out there jn addiction rippin n runnin i been there before as well n hopefully this gives u some hope like i wanted it too good luck ik we all need it because were all going through emotional trying tjmes in life n sometimes all we need is our spirit lifted by someone in the same struggle Im always open to talk to anyone about anything because honestly it helps me too This is my song to the most terrible thing I have ever encountered in my life other then waking up after 25 days remembering nothing n to find out my precious lil girl went to heaven before I ever got to c her or kiss her or even smell her that was the worst day of my life n I honestly for the longest time thought hell if this dont break me nothing will but there was one thing I always hated & said omg I will never do that look what is has done to my best friends n family I met the devil drug (HEROIN) n from that day on for the next yr n a half I lived so many different lives one persona for my family one for my friends one for whoever n I mean whoever I could get money from I didnt care if I hadnt talked to u in years if I seen u the first thought wasnt omg I havent seen u how r u it was omg my life sucks I need this n that make u feel bad n bad part is I didnt give a shit about what I needed if it wasnt heroin or something I couldnt steal I didnt need it is how I thought but now Im clean from the boogie man in my life have been since Aprilish lol ik everyone else counts there clean days but I dont because Im terrified to relapse & if I get weak one day n I do I dont wanna b able to say omg look at all those days I wasted because honestly u cant say they r wasted because u relapse because for x amount of days u tried ur hardest n did what u thought was the best u could do u gave it your all n sometimes thats all u can do ppl say to prey but honestly the fight comes from the inside nobody can help u get through it but ur determination n the sad part is is that u or I may relapse but there is nothing saying if u fail u cant get right back on so this song kinda helps me because I Am getting stronger w out heroin n it was like I was in a relationship at times I felt like I was cheating on the man I love most in the world Patrick J. Adler with heroin so hey u Im better these days then j I have been in years I feel whole again Im not dwelling on the past just so I thought I had a legit reason to get high but really there is no good reason u will think there is but no not at all it rains its a good reason its sunny u got a reason but really there is no reason other then weakness n u using ur passed as a get outta jail free card believe me I did it forever n it never made me feel better like I claimed for a high that last 3 sec hell lets go beg for more $ or rob someone its so disgusting what this shit will make u do even the things u say u will never do THEY R THE FIRST u WILL dO GOODLUCK TO ALL N TO all a GOOD NIGHT N DAY Xoxo caring words n advice from one addict to another n believe this I was the first to say Im not a drug addict I just got into something over my head but as I look back back in life there is plenty of addict behavior go to Na meetings they help n explain alot
Posted on: Sat, 28 Jun 2014 10:43:58 +0000
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