Hi everyone. Jeanne and I are still coping with the loss of Izzy, but we are able to smile, at least a little, at the funny things. Its amazing how Maxwell is recovering. But definitely some things weve noticed; When I get home, he cries a loud happy noise as if he thought I was gone forever. He barks much more at any noise outside. And if were having an emotional moment he wont chase a ball or anything....he stays by our side. I had some emotional times today at work. Especially when people want to discuss Izzy. I dont discourage them, but I do need to collect myself. I was able to break away for a little while and wrote about Izzy. It made me cry but also soothed me and calmed me for the rest of the day. With regret I ready myself to sleep One more day removed from holding you One more day without seeing you One more day worried for you Grabbing my pillow, holding tight I try to drift, into relief My thoughts on you, sleep eludes me On my side, like we used to lay together. Your back next to my chest My thoughts on what once was, how it used to be My heart races, grief comes in Now I feel your fur, by my face You nudge your head back Reminding me Look ahead daddy, not behind What we had is never gone Im happy now, Im not hurting anymore All I wanted was someone to play with me and maxwell To be my comforter and protector, and you did that I knew you were the one when you picked me You were there, always, I never doubted you Please dont cry or worry Let me lead you, I know the way Walk the fields, Im beside you Youre never alone daddy I hear her words. Feel her warmth. I drift off. Comforted Morning dawns. I awake, my face wet. Looking for my little girl Ill always love you. Thank you for the gift youve given me. I wont let you down Run free my little Izzy. Run free
Posted on: Tue, 23 Sep 2014 00:09:27 +0000
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