I Purchase and make my own food, so no I dont starve myself, I dont skip meals either and I still eat my delicious PIZZA from time to time. I got a comment today that I look sick in my face, really???? I was 280pounds overweight, yes I was. I lost 55pounds overall, due to my own emotional baggage from my past, I honestly wanted to gained every ounce back, because at one point I didnt feel like I deserve to be happy, I have been scared for so long to be slim, my weight have been my protection it losing weight make me feel like i am losing my guard. I now have to relearn new ways to feel safe in my body rather than using my weight. When I was fat, most said ohh your too fat when I lost weight most said oh your getting too small and look sick when I gained back my weight ohh you gained back your weight OMG!! you need to get back on track now I am losing weight Ohhh noo, you look sick. Now tell me, am I here to please you?? and get accepted about my appearance? I workout, I also do P90x weight training 3 times a week and do my yoga. Everyone is use to the big old me, well I no longer want her in my life. I tell her she did her part in protecting me but my new me will take over. I was instructed from my doctor to reach 180 or 170pounds due to my height and my bad knee. I am not here to please anyone but myself. I feel happy within my skin, and yes I will look like a completely different person after I lose my weight, my face will change tremendously. When you fat everyone talks when your slim and slender everyone talks. Everyone talk about my story bad and good, who should I listen to and please? I am sorry but my pleasing days are over. I have been through much, and I put me first. Its my happiness, its my life, its my skin. I share my story to help those parents to be better parents, not for attention or fame but because I would never want children to go through such a disaster. So to sum up, I eat and exercise and I dont skip meals.
Posted on: Thu, 02 Oct 2014 21:44:29 +0000
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