I am an optimist, I tackle projects with reckless abandon, nothing is impossible, just a challenge. My business and health have been an overwhelming challenge this year. Lailas health has been a humbling lesson in powerlessness. There is one person to blame for Lailas constant suffering, and days like today, it boils inside me, that she lives her life with no consequences for Lailas suffering. Andy and I have very extensive medical background , we were under no illusion that Laila would just be a fun, cute little tripod who would go about her little life like any other pup. We knew her poor start would likely cause issues in her immune system, shed always have something here or there to deal with. The allergies that escalated to anaphylactic reactions were scary, understanding the sources, no issue, we can avoid and treat. The seizures becoming multi focal were a moment of terror, but learning there were no masses or vessel issues, seizures dont scare us, we just struggle to keep her from harm and minimize them. Today, seeing my 2 yr old puppys hip, looking like a 10 yr old dogs hip was mortifying. That much damage in only two years is an ugly reality check. At this rate of joint deterioration, we face the sobering realization, regardless of the fixes we can find, Lailas other joints will likely also deteriorate as she compensates for each loss of function. We will seek the best care we can find, have been so grateful to those stepping up financially to do just that because we couldnt. At some point, we will be back in fight mode, but right now, were in loss mode, we know this problem cuts her days with us much shorter. Her cray cray sweet little couch eating mind will far outlive her failing body, and thats a pretty bitter pill to swallow. Shes been in pain and we had no idea, to think that well one day, at a much younger age than I ever imagined, be in a position to decide on her quality of life has been a major gut punch. So yes, we will fight for her but right now the reality of the bigger picture has just sucked the fight out of us. My two year old puppys joints are already failing her. We just need time to soak in the reality.Yes, shes a fighter, but she feels pain and shes not invincible.
Posted on: Tue, 29 Oct 2013 03:34:01 +0000
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