I am going to try to attempt to express my heart tonight, through tears of joy....the last few days I have had a very heavy heart and spirit over a few matters of life...well as I went early tonight to the church to get nachos ready for tonights fellowship , when I got there my husband had everything already together so it was around 4:40pm I decided to go to the prayer room all by myself as I was praying tears began to roll and at one point I was so deep in prayer asking God to Please use Me to reach lost souls show me what I need to change in my life to be more like you ....I guess you could say I was so desperate for God to speak to me ...while I am praying I see this big ball of yellow light that is so big , its so bright and shining every where I ask God what is the ball of light and these are words that he spoke to my heart ....the ball of light is your life it shines so bright for everyone to see , but then as I am looking at this light it comes closer to me and I see a little tiny dot in the middle and its dark and God speaks to my heart and says this is a past hurt that has never healed , it goes way way back you never think about it and you have never let it go....you keep it all covered up and only you know its there but tonight I am going to take it away and right before my eyes the dot began to get smaller and smaller until all that was in the ball was the bright light shining....and then my husband walks over and says God use my wife to win lost souls and let her light shine brighter than it has ever before...that very moment I felt something lift that was familiar and had been apart of me as long as I can remember...a deep wound that from time to time I would bandage up and tuck it away ....I dont have all the answers to all the things that we all go through here in this life , why do some love God and serve him with their whole hearts...why do some just walk with God when its convenient for them....why do babies get sick , why is their abuse, why does mothers not care, why do dads leave, why is their divorce, death, etc....so many things that happen in a persons life that shapes them into the person they are, good and bad....but this one thing I do know Jesus is still the answer to all things ...If you give your life to him and trust he knows whats best for you then as my husband preached tonight you will love the life your living.....I am so thankful tonight to know that God loves me and he cares about me ....my hearts desire is to please him and one day hear him say enter in my child , you have fought the good fight and now your reward is Heaven.... Church was awesome this morning and tonight had visitors in both services....as I end this post , I hear Sis. Micky Manguns voice in my heart singing I feel like going on the road is long sometimes and we get stuck in the middle of the road , but God will always be there to pull us out.....good night face book ....love you all...
Posted on: Mon, 19 Jan 2015 06:22:58 +0000
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