I am so emotional today and my emotions are so raw... Im not even sure I could even function without a high stress level anymore. I was talking to my Pastor the other day and he was telling me this is a time of spiritual muscle building.. I keep going back and thinking about that. There is so much happening in my life at once, and the saying, Sometimes God calms the storm and sometimes God allows the storm to rage and calms His child. Fits my life perfectly at this moment. Yesterday was an emotional day for me, I was on my sisters back porch and I was brought to me knees with the sadness of it all, the thought of losing my Daddy, the weight and pressure of everything Im taking care of and doing for others right now. I was in the perfect position to pray and pray I did. I am so weak, so human but God renewed and revived me, placing His strength inside me to go on, to focus on the task at hand and to get through the day. Im leaning on God today as well! As I was holding my grandson yesterday I couldnt help but think of his life, it has just began, his life is stretched out in front of him and my Dads life, he is holding on by a thin thread and his life is ending. It makes me marvel at the gift of life and so many things. It also makes me think of all the small trivial things I have complained about in the past and it makes me realize how small all those things are and what is truly important and worth my time. My main goal today and everyday is learning to lean on God for it all and to enjoy each moment I have with the people I love, to make beautiful memories thatll last a lifetime and to never take even a moment for granted! Im learning my loved ones deserve my time, not just to be there physically buy to allow them to have all of my attention in that moment. It has brought a sense of peace and no matter how crazy things are now Im learning to slow down and enjoy whatever it is Im doing! These lessons in life dont come cheap it or without a price to pay, but they are worth it. In learning so much and growing spiritually as Im going forward! That I am so grateful for! Im praying through it all! Feeling amazed and blessed at how far Ive come!
Posted on: Fri, 01 Nov 2013 12:43:17 +0000