I am trying everything I can to continue to make and sell paintings. Everyone has been so supportive, telling me not to quit and really liking what I have been creating but I think its time everyone knew the truth about me so you may want to sit down for this.... My family has had a long history with a genetic code causing Degeneritive disks,stenosis,scoliosis and more. Personally, 2 of my disks were fuzed at birth so I have a little less of an ability to streach and be as limber as most people. My L4 and L5 are just desenegrating. Brittle too, so disk fractures are more likely if I fall or overdo something. This is a constant crushing pain for me and stiffness. Stenosis is a narrowing of the disks cusions. My cusions have narrowed over an entire inch causing me unbearable pain, intestinal issues, an inability to stand, sit, sleep, work or function as a normal person. I think It also helps allow certian nerves to get pinched and stuck between your disks causing siatica or shooting fire hot pains down your legs. Ive also went from 57 to 56 which sucks. Pain also can make a person go insane which has been proven in torture. Scoliosis is a curvature of the spine that with my age isnt really fixable. Its main problem with me is causing disks to compress odly on certian sides kinda squishing the good ones and making the bad ones worse. All of this stuff is causing multiple mussle issues too. Like mussels being pulled to hard, cramping up, ones that are super over built and ones that are not strong enough. I have Severe and constant spasms along with knots and shoulder and neck issues. My right leg feels like a crumpled up piece of paper 24 hours of the day and my lumbar mussels look and feel like huge bridge cables. The pain I have in my lower back is so severe that I cannot bend over and get back up very easily. I cannot carry much, I have trouble putting on my own shoes, getting out of bed and so on. What I can do is thanks in part to daily physical theropy, special exorcises, heat, ice, and physical theropy equipment and unfortionatly, pain medications, mussle relaxers, anti anxiety medications, anti depressants and faith in god. Praying that I will be ok enough to paint tomorrow so that someone will like it enough to buy it and I can pay the $300 it takes to get the gold plan for Obamacare and get the surgery or whatever can be done. Maybe even pay my 3 weeks past due car payment and the mortgage thats due in a few days. Even better, Id like to take my kid out for something fun because Ive been in the ER most of the day and hes worried sick about me! Hes had a broken arm and is doing everything he can to help me But this doesnt include even more money for supplies to paint on my better days. For me to make enough to keep going guys, even from a wheelchair, I have to sell quite a few of my Killer Paintings or win the lottery. I cant do it alone yall. I really need your help to not just keep painting but to get the help I desperatly need. To keep what I have left in this world. To provide for my son. If ANY of you could please talk to someone you know that may like a big painting or need several medium ones? maybe your boss or a well off friend with a bare wall!! whoever you can think of... Email them or show them the Killer Painting page. Help me make a sale and Ill give you a painting! Im not looking for a hand out here. Im not looking for sympathy either. Im just asking for some help getting me in front of the right people so I can hook them up with a great painting! Im just one guy, I dont have a family I can ask for help and now Im pretty much disabled so I could really use some help from you. Ive been living with pain most of my life. Heck, pain is whats made a whole bunch of these paintings but its gotten really bad over the last 3 years. Im at risk of having everything taken away from me, even being able to mow my own lawn so please, do what you can if you can. Help me help myself. I just want to pay for what Ive worked so hard for, enjoy some frisbee with my son and keep working. Thanks for understanding too everyone. Now yall know a little more about my struggle and why Im not doing any shows and stuff this year. There is more to my story but this has been long enough! For now:) thank you thank you!! Any help will be so appreciated!!
Posted on: Mon, 28 Apr 2014 16:56:11 +0000