I appreciate everyones parenting advice and pretty much telling me Im overreacting about germs. That I need to let my baby get dirty or lick on dirty Legos handled by a room of other babies! The list goes on about how Im over protective of Logan, but Id appreciate it not being shoved down my throat constantly. Very few of you have experienced what I have went thru, and those that have thank you for the constant support, understanding and telling me that Im doing whats best for my baby. I would never wish what I went went thru on anyone, but if you of walked one day just one day maybe you could understand. How many of you know what its like to not being able to see your baby for 12 hours after they were born, and the five seconds you saw them in the OR are a complete blur. Imagine the first time you really get to see your baby, they have glasses on their eyes, a tube down their throat, tape covering the majority of their face, so pretty much all you can see is a tiny little nose. Oh and they are hooked up on a ventilator thats shaking their whole body like a paint mixer at the hardware store. Imagine your baby being born without lungs, and having to be filled with medicine to develop his lungs and strengthen them. Then wait, a week to see your baby without hoses, tubes and tape covering them most beautiful face youve ever seen. Continue to wait 7 more days before being able to hold your baby, after being told you could hold them a week ago but the nurse wouldnt let you and before that you could only touch him for a few seconds every 3-4 hours. Then continue to watch your child fight tubes going in their nose and mouth! NOWHERE finished yet!! Prepare yourself to get bad news daily, like the fact your son has a hole in his heart that hasnt closed yet and he might need surgery. Then two weeks later its not completely healed but very close. Oh wait then he has a brain bleed that they will need to monitor. Then continue to wait to bring your baby home 45 days after he was born. Scared to death for your child to get sick, because the doctors already told you he cant handle it and unless you want to come back to the NICU we need to take precautions on everything. Do you think I like kicking out my family and friends so my Logan doesnt get sick! No! It makes me feel horrible, but Logans health is more important to me. So if... I constantly gripe at someone about washing their hands or using hand sanitizer...Im not sorry I tell you cant come over, because youve had a stuffy nose...Im not sorry. I tell you not to come over if youve been smoking or drown your self in perfume... Im not sorry. I tell you not to give Logan the dirty toys you picked up off the floor or the one your child was playing with... Im not sorry. Im sorry that Logans health is more important to me than letting him live like a normal baby. Im not taking away his childhood by keeping him clean and things around him. Yes I stockpile on hand sanitizer and use it constantly. Ive already felt like I failed him due to him being born 10 weeks early, because my body couldnt handle being pregnant! So I will take every precaution that he doesnt get sick and end up back in the hospital!! Im forever grateful and blessed that God sent Logan to me and Brian. Also, for letting him come home healthy and not having to have surgeries or monitors hooked up constantly. #sorrynotsorry #rantover
Posted on: Sat, 23 Aug 2014 15:56:42 +0000
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