I come from a very broken and dis-functional family, I’ve lived in poverty, I’ve been bullied and beaten up, I was mentally abused from age 4 to age 17, I’ve had multiple eating disorders, I’ve battled self harm, suicide attempts, drug abuse, and I have seen many close friends pass away by taking their own life. I’m not posting any of this to gain compassion or empathy… I’m posting this to let you know that I’ve had shitty times too, I’m here for you completely, and it will get better. But it’s up to you, nobody else, to take the initiative. If you’re tired of living the way you do, if you’re tired of the people you surround yourself with, or the way you’re thought process has been… CHANGE IT. When I was in the gutter, I was scared, I didn’t know where to step next or how to even begin my journey to accomplish whatever it is I wanted to do. I was scared of failing. I was scared of putting in an effort for nothing. I was scared of not being enough. But you know what was one of the most beautiful and life changing things I could’ve possibly ever done? I was brave. I said, “Why the hell not?” I started being happy, not just for myself, but the people around me. I started smiling more. I weeded out the negative people from my life. I found a passion for something. But most of all I was kind. I refused to be defined by my past obstacles. YOUR PAST IS NOT WHO YOU ARE. YOUR PAST IS NOT A VALID EXCUSE TO GIVE UP ON YOURSELF. YOUR PAST IS NOT WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE. Don’t give in baby, chase the life you deserve. If you happen to stumble and fall, which you probably will… I want you to get up, dust yourself off, spit in your problem’s face and say, “Screw you, I can do this.” It’s a slow process, it takes time, but boy does that first step feel fantastic. Be brave. Be yourself. Don’t apologize for being who you want to be. I’ll be here if you ever need me. I promise. “Don’t compare the time spent on your success to other people’s, because it takes more time to build a palace than an ordinary building.” I love you. Goodnight.
Posted on: Tue, 14 Oct 2014 03:41:24 +0000