I dont understand why I am this way. All I know is I opened up and put my heart on the line and it feels like its just being crushed all over. Ill never be the person I used to be. That side of me is gone and now I dont know where I belong. Im sorry to every person I have broken promises to. Im sorry for every lie I ever told and Im sorry I couldnt live up to everyones expectations. Ill never know why my mom shoved my sister and I away. Ill never know why she would not let my biological dad see me. Why she lied and said he was dead. I will never understand the reason I had to be molested by my cousin when I was a child. Ill never be the one to say I told you so. I cant understand why did GOD let all the dark and miserable things happen to me. Ill never understand why he couldnt just give me some sort of sign a reason to have faith in him. If all my life has been is a test for my faith then I have failed. How can people say he is a loving god when all he has done is take everything away from me. I admit that I have done so much wrong but I have changed and still all I get is pain. I hurt so deep. Someone please help me find the light in this darkness Im trapped in. Im losing my mind all over. I am sorry to everyone I have hurt. I am dead inside and I cant revive myself. I just need answers please God give me answers
Posted on: Wed, 08 Oct 2014 10:36:20 +0000
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