I hate writing Facebook statuses because the whole idea of sharing some form of emotion or any type of status always seemed so damn stupid to me. I always thought no one cared, all they do is like it and make a comment and try to cheer you up or whatever. The whole idea just never appealed to me. No one is ever going to remember what you said, no one cares. I dont care about likes, or any of that. But I feel so alone now, and while I dont expect anyone to read this, I guess posting virtually to a public somehow makes it feel faintly heard, over all I guess Im really just writing this to myself. So Ill just say this really common, nonimportant, minimal teen outcry which will later become a lost virtual memory that I might scroll back to years from now, if I dont erase it in a few hours. I found happiness two years ago. I wont say within what, but I found it, and it made me happy. The thing is that when you start receiving something over and over it starts to become expected, so as you feel its not something you need to tend to constantly. To cut a very long story short, I guess I made some rough and ignorant mistakes which have cost me a great opportunity in life the likes of which realistically I will most likely never regain, and so now my path isnt dark, its changed courses. And after two years Of expecting anything less than what you did for so long, you become scared, and feel lonely. Now. Now its time for me to change. For me. Its so cliche that it hurts right in the ego, but its....true. If you remember grievous decisions from a past you have a propensity to be more evasive of those mistakes. I apologize for the vagueness, but as silly as it sounds, for a status still, people still really have no business in this. It might have been late for one opportunity of a lifetime, but maybe if you learn and you try you can find another one. Because thats all you have. Hope for another one.
Posted on: Mon, 10 Nov 2014 03:20:07 +0000
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