I have always had trouble getting pregnant it would seem. My husband and I had tried for a year. So finding out I was pregnant was a big thing for us! We were so excited. I had gotten pregnant in the past but it never got far along enough to even have an ultra sound. So when we got are first ultra sound picture it seemed all to real and right. I wasnt very far along. I was only 6 weeks but To me holding that picture made me believe it would work . the doctor told me the baby looked healthy and had a heart beat. But that night I started bleeding just a lil. I told myself that maybe it was from the ultra sound and brushed it off. I regret that the most. The next morning I woke up and there was more I new something was wrong but I think I was in a state of shock. I was calm and called my mother and husband and went to the hospital. I didnt shed a tear ..I was laughing and hoping for the best even laying in that hospital bed. For hours it seemed like my mind wondered an wondered. When the doctor came back to tell us the news I then broke out historically ...as any women would. I am having a really rough time. My babys due date is coming up. An I feel like my husbands gets sick of hearing me cry ..we are still trying but as it was when we first started I am having a very hard time getting pregnant. I feel like its never going To happen for us. I hold my friends babys and of course I am happy for them ..but it breaks my heart every time. My husband tells me to keep faith. But every time my period roles around I just wanna shut down and say forget faith....
Posted on: Sun, 13 Apr 2014 00:20:32 +0000