I have seen my dad do a lot of things to my mom that Im not proud of an my mom has since passed on and her final words were please take care of ur sisters and dont turn out to be like ur dad my dad was very abusive and he loved women at time he would turn his back on us wen eva he had money and lev us whit nexs to eat bt we nva slep hungry coz my mom would try her best to provide 4 us while my dad spended his money supporting other peoples children and wen he runs out of money he would come back empty handed and eat from the little we hav! Since I was young he would look at me and say the day u start working u wil turn ur back on me Well its been years since my mom passed on and her passing has been a blessing coz now my dad changed he now realizes what a huge role she played and he is trying to play the role of a dad. My sisters 4got al he did in the past I hav not I remember each and every detail I wana forget but Im not the forgiving type when eva he starts to beat on my sisters evn when dey wrong it brings back that painful memories wic coz me to act out! In fact he is just a father by name to me but I ddnt love or feel any thing 4 he as far as Im concerned my father died a long time ago, I let him knw every chance I get tht I dnt wana be like him. My mom alway tot us to pray and Id like to walk in her foot steps and live by her example but my problem is tht my heart is filled wit anger I cant forgive and forget and its starting to affect my life coz my worse fear seem to be coming true I think this anger is gona coz me to turn in2 my dad Im so confused I dont evn knw what I want in life any more Im always angry and the funny part is Im a closes book I dnt evn tell my best frend my troubles I jst keep tham to my slf it doz not matter how close you are to me or how bad of a day Im having or what problems I have wen u ask how are u I always repli Im ok or Im fine bt the truth is I dnt trust no one
Posted on: Sat, 02 Nov 2013 09:50:03 +0000
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