I have wanted to write this for a while now, so I am finally doing it. The past Couple of years have been whirl wind to say the least. I have gone through a lot of emotional pain. I have people who I love who I thought would be there forever walk out of my life. The choices of others have caused me such grief in trying to figure out why people do what they do. I lost myself in this process. Growing up I was Naïve in my thinking, I never understood what it really felt like to be broken, and there was no Black and white anymore. Life was never going to be how it was. Maybe it was because it was never the way I saw it in the first place. I question everything; my beliefs in God, My memories had been tarnished of a perfect happy childhood. Those close to me know I withdrew. I felt judged from every angle. There was no peace because my family wasn’t at peace. I want to say it’s all behind me, but it isn’t. I want to say that it still doesn’t hurt, but it does. The difference is I have allowed the things I still love back in. Hurt doesn’t get easier; it just becomes the New Normal. I have learned a lot though. 1. Everyone handles things differently. Be patient. 2. Life goes on, regardless if at times we aren’t present for it. 3. I married a man who was meant for me. It may sound cheesy, however he was. He was the only person who was able to love me enough to allow me to go through this process without trying to control or fix it. 4. You really can only control your actions. 5. Everyone has something they are struggling with. You can choose to be the type of friend that is there for someone or the one that is nice friendship on the surface. 6. Relationships are really the most important thing in this world but it takes two people who want it to make it work. 7. Never make permanent decisions based off of emotions. This may sound odd, however if you make a decision on something with emotions I feel you truly can’t grow from things. 8. Just because those we love make hard life choices doesn’t mean everything about this person is bad. 9. Bad things happen to everyone don’t try and compare your struggles with anyone else’s. 10. The best medicine for anyone going through something hard in their life is to help someone who is going through something hard. Service is truly is the greatest blessing you can give and receive. Make the choice to be happy regardless of certain things going around us. It is a daily choice, and Love yourself for you are. Never stop learning, never stop growing, and never stop giving. Amanda
Posted on: Thu, 16 Oct 2014 04:06:53 +0000
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