I lost my grandmother either last night or this morning. She lived a long prosperous life. As with most things Rameshwar she left this world with a cloud of drama and uncertainty. Im sure this was not her intent. Nevertheless, my inability to appropriately morn the inspiration of my life by traditional means leaves me here to this page. I dont really want to speak about the little things. Though those little things are cherished items in my heart. What I will say is my grandmother grew up in a different era. An era where women had to carve their path with these exacting laser like little things. The thought of the enormity of obstacles she slayed with her little things that most men could not with their bigger things is just flat out impressive. She was all the things I am not; subtle, gifted, tactful, overtly loving, secure, contemplative, competitive, cautious, and dogmatic. I could never measure up and always rested on my loud, over aggressive, under educated, over emotional BILL ORielly side in an effort to reach the level of her pinky toe. In all my life there has never been another woman who could wrap my intellect around her finger and fling it across a room quicker and with the least amount of effort than my grandmother could. Though she loved me, shed just as easily cut my finger off to save my hand without the slightest hesitation. What I really wanted to say to all you mothers out there is this. Do whats right, if you wanted a friend you shouldnt have had a baby. As I do, they will love you more for it. Life is hard enough, dont spare your childrens feelings by slicing away their souls. And everytime you protect them from their mistakes, you hide them from themselves. In a lost downward spiraling universe how does a being grow and develop if theyve never known themselves? My grandmother understood this and gave me the greatest gift anyone could give me, a fair loving picture of who I am and what was expected of me. Love you grandma, I am proud to be your grandson and Ill love you forever. xxxooo
Posted on: Tue, 15 Apr 2014 01:27:08 +0000
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