I try to be as positive as I can on this page. But let me tell you, things arent always gumdrops and rainbows. This has been a VERY difficult season. Jett seems to spend one week home, one week in hospital. I do NOT chose or want this. Being told I take him to hospital for a break is absurd. Why on earth would I ever want to be away from my baby?! I give him the best care. No one else. I try to keep him home as long as possible. Too long with his last stomach bug, that his sugar was dangerously low and they said he couldve slipped into a coma. I still have a lot of mommy guilt over that, but Im using it as an example , that I dont just rush my baby to the hospital for LITTLE things. It is NOT a break. I dont think many people understand, his hospital is in a different city that where I reside. This requires highway driving, in winter. In Canada. I cant just go be with my baby whenever I want because of the distance. Believe it or not, this breaks my heart. I dont like him sitting in his hospital crib all by himself and with no stimulation. I dont like having to find funding to pay for gas/ meals to see him. I dont like watching my son being poked and prodded numerous times. I dont like that I FINALLY get him to sleep after 10 hours for the doctor to walk in to assess him and wake him up. I DONT LIKE IT! It is NOT a break. It is the opposite. Imagine being away from your baby that often. Imagine what I go through. I have to FIGHT to keep him alive day to day, minute to minute and second to second. Not many moms can say that! If youve made it through yet another rant, I appreciate it. A mother can only take so much, JETT can only take so much, and my family can only take so much. If you dont like how I do things, or what I post, I will be happy to show you the unlike button. And to those that support me and comment on EVERY photo and every status, I see you! I know who you are! I know our regulars. I also know not everyone comments, but sends thoughts and prayers and I appreciate that as well. Anyways, positive thoughts team Jett. I love you guys.
Posted on: Sat, 17 Jan 2015 08:02:05 +0000
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