INSERT #139 We went emotweni and Thando drove off. He inserted idisc yeJazz and turned up the volume, bekungathi ndizokugqhabhuka iindlebe coz it was too loud. I turned it down a little and Thando looked at me ngamehlo anosizi. I looked away, ndoyamise intloko yam efestileni ndajonga indlela. Thando: soze sibenabantwana kengoku Amahle? he asked while turning down the volume and i ignored him. I was hurt and besendingxamele sifike endlini ndizokuzivalela in one of the bedrooms and cry coz bendinento esemqaleni and i had to take it out. Thando: Sinombulelo! i looked at him. Him: ndicela ingakukhathazi lento Me: njani Thando? Izothini ukungandikhathazi into yokuba soze ndiphinde ndibenaye umntana?? Lamntana ndandinaye ekuqaleni yayingowokuqala nowokugqibela Thando ngoku uthi mandingakhathazeki ekubeni unaye wena umntana mna ndibe ndingasoze ndibenaye?! Him: baby akhongxaki nje.. I wont have a problem nokungazali kwakho.. Ndiyakuthanda Sinombulelo and ukungazali kwakho wont change the way i feel about you... Baby ill have to accept you the way you are nangona nje kuzokubanzima... I wanted us to have a child together.. Phof abantwana not just one but many Me: libala kebhuti coz soze ndikuzalele abobantwana Him: we have to pray Amahle... Uthixo uzokuzoyisa zonke ezizinto zangamabomu bakwenze zona.. Uzokuzala Amahle kusothanda uthixo Me: God does not love me Thando.. If he loved me ngeyengazange avumele uSisipho nomamawakhe bandithakathe.. Ngeyengazange avumele amayeza wabo asebenze.. If God loved me ngendizala Thando Him: baby suthetha kanje tana.. God does love you qha you must have faith in him and izinto zethu zizokuhamba kakuhle Me: kutheni ndizokuhlupheka kangaka mna ndedwa? Oko ndazalwa Thando im always facing ubunzima.. Ndonwaba kancinci mna Thando and ixesha elinintsi ndiyakhala coz ndinamashwa mna i started crying. Him: baby sukhala... And ndicela unganikezeli.. Well fight this together and kufuneke siqinise ukholo lwethu kuthixo Him: we shouldnt have went there yaz.. I dont believe nakwezizinto zamagqirha mna and i know that nawe you dont.. Ayikho lento besiyiyela pha sewukhathazeka nje ngoku.. Baby kuzolunga and sizokubanaye umntana only if we pray.. Akufuneki sisebenzise amayeza xasifuna ukubanomntana sibe sihamba idistance ezinde ukhona umthandazo.. Xawuthandaza awube uhamba idistance you just kneel down kwindawo okuyo uthandaze and God will hear your prayer i kept quiet ndalila. Uyewathetha sade sayokufika endlini. I went to the bathroom and took a bath ndanxiba impahla yokulala ndakhwela ebhedini. I wasnt in the mood yokupheka or eat, all i wanted was to lay in the bed and cry ndikhuphe lento ibisemqaleni. I layed with my tummy and burried my face on a pillow and i cried. Eyonanto ibindililisa kakhulu yinto yokuba yonke lento ndiyenziwa yicousin yam, abantu endizalwa nabo and that i was about to get married and my fiancee and i planned to have kids and yonke lonto izokuchithakala coz andizali. Many marriages got destroyed ngenxayokungabikho kwabantwana. I loved uThando alot and i did not want to lose him ngenxayokungazali kwam. He wanted a child and ndisokungamzaleli uzokuyomfuna ngaphandle, kaloku xayengade amfumane kum uzokumenza ecaleni. He got into the room and came to the bed, he layed next to me wandivusa. Bendimanzi zinyembezi and the pillow was also wet. Him: Amahle awuzukufa ngenxayba ungazali.. Banintsi abantu abangazaliyo apha phandle and awungowokuqala so thula baby.. As ive said, your infertility will not change the way i feel about you Me: you dont understand Thando.. I wanted a baby too.. Umntana uzobangowam.. Ndimkhulelwe and give birth to that baby.. If uyanditawna uzobe udlala nje ngesperms zakho coz i will never concieve Him: wayenzelwa imbheleko? Me: no zange ndiyenzelwe.. Awenziwa amasiko ekhaya sikhule enkonzweni Him: nakulomama awenziwa but sayenzelwa imbheleko.. Baby noZintle had the same problem as yours.. She also had amenorrhea for few months then waright after enzelwe imbheleko so nawe ke inoba udinga ukwenzelwa yona Me: asikholelwa kwezonto ekhaya Him: ibalulekile kodwa nokuba anikholelwa kuzo.. Ndithembe sthandwa sam xandisithi okukugula kwakho kufuna imbheleko.. Zintle was also in the same situation as yours and things got better after enzelwe imbheleko he wiped my tears away and he kissed me, i moved away. Me: uncamisa nemifinya.. Sies Him: i dont care.. Yeyakho mos he wiped my eyes and nose with his hands then we kissed for a very long time. The door opend. tata masambe kaloku Sino shouted and we did not stop kissing. iyhoo haike nina Sino shouted while closing the door. Thando broke the kiss and we laughed. Him: iyakhweleta lentwana uyayibona i smiled. He kissed me in the forehead. Him: ndisayothenga into yokutya baby Me: usisithandwa yaz he got up and went out. I took my phone and i signed in on facebook and i searched for uSisipho.
Posted on: Wed, 24 Dec 2014 20:29:39 +0000
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