If Im honest with myself, some days I get up and think why? Why did God awaken me? So many of my days, for the past 30 years, have been filled with so much pain and despair that I wish I could just disappear. Thoughts pass through my mind about my past, my present, my future, my family ties (or lack of them), the fake friends that smile in my face and talk behind my back, the financial struggles, the social struggles, the evil that hovers all around and that Im fed through a fire hose by the media, etc. etc. etc. Many days I wish I could lie down and not get up. No longer having to look into the faces of people I hurt or let down; no longer having to face those who have hurt me or let me down; no longer having to go through the constant struggles of making it through each moment of each day. THEN GOD SHOWS UP! Oh and what a blessing He is to me; to be held in the arms of God every day and be reminded of how much He loves me. How he did the unthinkable, of giving His ONLY SON as a sacrifice for me and all others so that I (we) can have a never-ending relationship with Him; by His stripes I am healed...forgiven even, wow (Isaiah 53:5). So that the sins that I commit daily, that flood my life some days like the heavily gated doors that are the Damns of Hell have opened and the demons that reside behind them come to attack my existence are HELD BACK OFF OF ME & I AM PROTECTED – PROTECTED & FORGIVEN DAILY. So that I can rest assured that my soul will rest with My Lord on the day of my final calling (John 14:6). So, yes - my days are often filled with great pain in my heart, and the illnesses that lurk inside try to threaten me, and the evil whispers tell me to give up and get it over with, and I contemplate the end often, BUT when I am reminded through the scripture For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life (John 3:16), I cry out and say THANK YOU LORD, THANK YOU LORD, THANK YOU LORD FOR EVERYTHING! Then I am able to go out into the world, covered by His Grace & His Mercy, put on my Holy Smile, My Holy Armor, My Holy Walk, My Holy Talk, and get to living my Holy Life. Have a Holy & Blessed Day All…I wish you the best of days today and always, and the blessing to know and receive His Love!
Posted on: Thu, 13 Mar 2014 13:20:42 +0000