Ill never forget an evening over 11 years ago, when my husband & I sat at a table for dinner with 2 other dear couples who were expecting babies. We were eight years into marriage, 2 yrs. post endometriosis surgery, and childless. I was so happy for my beautiful friends, but I felt like I was dying on the inside. On the way home from dinner I sobbed uncontrollably. And I continued to cry all night. Most of the time I could dismiss the deep ache of my empty arms that longed to hold a child. But there were moments and nights such as these when the pain could not be contained, and it poured like a river from my heart. Little did I know in the darkness of that night, I was 6 weeks pregnant with our amazing miracle Alexa Kathryn, that God had granted my deepest hearts desire, and that I was indeed a mother. I dont know why things happen the way they do. Why women I hear complaining about their children on a daily basis, (who dont even seem to want children) HAVE them, and other women who would make incredible mothers never experience this incomparable gift of pregnancy & motherhood. But I do know this. God knows our pain and He sees our tears. And Jesus extends us the invitation to cast all our cares on Him, because He cares for us, and is deeply acquainted with all our sorrows. So dear friend of mine who has not yet seen an answer to your prayers like Hannahs for a child to hold and love; tonight I pray for you. That you would know how high and how wide, how deep and how long is the love of Jesus. And that you would feel His comforting presence, and that the Holy Spirit would minister to those deep places of pain in your heart that no one else could possibly understand. And I cry with you. And if I was sitting beside you I would hold your hand in silence, and plead with my God on your behalf. I love you sister. This is not the end of your story. He holds your tears in a bottle, and He will make beauty from these ashes. You’ve kept track of my every toss and turn through the sleepless nights, Each tear entered in your ledger, each ache written in your book. (Psalm 56:8 MSG)
Posted on: Mon, 12 May 2014 01:38:59 +0000
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