Im creating my own rituals to control my urgent needs and finding positive distractions to not think about what was making me so manic and stressed that it has been proving that adhering to a faith through ritual, Im finding the things are right where I am when I forget i was looking for it? In the most urgent moment or urge since adhering to this faith Im practicing and adhering to just when I almost wanted to flush down the toilet the most import symbol and way of stopping myself from what Im not intending to do I actually reached out through FB for anyones help and the perfect person aloud me to vent. cry, vent, cry and then when she tried to mentor me by guiding me through a process of cleansing, in a respectful ritual to cleanse my object of faith, do what I needed to experience calm in a violent storm, and cleanse myself, and by her patiently waiting for my need to fully focus, so i had to un-clutter a space first where I would be able to focus, lol, and have faith in the process I couldnt understand because it was a learn as you go lesson in patience and adhering to faith in my mentor/friend/extended family member to accept that her help came first because I could never think her intentions were anything but out of wanting to help me with the purest intentions of a lady Ill always love, proving my faith in my belief that her intentions are always pure and have good intentions. I was able to sleep last night a half hour earlier than the night before, wake up an hour earlier, and had one friend use part of his time to let me begin to teach him music theory through guitar, let him know that just like I did that you can actually spend 100 dollars and receive almost 1,000 dollars of real value simply because someone there was desperate or didnt properly research the value of the item they were selling and when it comes to most of what i think of a business that is more about earning more than they deserve and intentionally applying urgency to needing more than they came there for in order to spend more than they can that is the purest form of profiting by accident or through knowledge that is the only time I dont feel a hint of guilt and feel more of a sense of pride when I buy something for almost nothing when i was willing to spend a fair price to get it! i also found that i could provide by anonymous items to a friend of his who needs some things i intend to donate, and he helped by his labor to start to arrange things within a limited space so I can start to decide if there needed to be with me, worth storing, if the value is worth the time it will take to sell, and how to find good people who deserve it for free, then donate the rest. Summer, has been promised Ill store all or any items that can stay in proper repair by being stored has first choice in my purging, Summer is also purging her stuff that doesnt give a strong enough sense of need or want and may have needed items that wont be claimed before she donates. After that I reaffirmed that planning and setting up the most comfortable way of serving your intended purpose is the best way to get the most out of the limited time with a good friend by teaching other how to accompany each other to improve the quality of your expression by learning by using knowledge of music theory how to learn how to jam! I am using a children show on net-flix called Art and Music that is part of Baby First infant to toddler education that has literally helped me to relax on every level when i felt stress and Im incorporating in my ritual of journaling, privately and through FB to set myself up for a real period of restful sleep and Im letting the sleep schedule I want to keep happen organically by planning instead of forcing myself into it. Goodnight to all, and to the people who have reached in concern and taken time to help me and to the people Ive found who can benefit from me in some way to and my old friends who loved me before i knew how to love myself! Peace!
Posted on: Wed, 16 Oct 2013 08:12:03 +0000
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