It seem something have been ending recently. The memory of two years ago became fresh today: the city of Nanjing. The lose in the second test of speed design of the Nanjing University, Graduate Qualification Exam asked me to think seriously my secondary choice, a job. Nanjing University was almost my life dream, where a student of urban study can learn from several disciplines like geography, architecture and history. But it just broke and I had to think what was next. There should be a new starting point. That was May, I chose to have a internship in Institute of Urban Planning and Design, University of Nanjing, and I decided to taste the reality of life, of society more than that in school. In the room I rented were 4 people, an old worker, two young workers, 100 $ per month, we did not have too much to share except some traditional communist joke. But all in all, except the elders snore and youngs phone chatting, I cant argue too much, in fact I kind of liked those days and unfamiliar simple people. I experienced and got to know some kind of middle-lower life in big cities. Every morning began with a rice cake with a cup of soya-bean milk, one days expense was about 20 yuan or 3 $. To save my pocket and practice, I spent 20 minutes walking from home to office. Not surprisingly, life is hard. What is not? Believe or not, it was not hard for me to live like that, I never doubt this. It was a training, to see how would I become in that situation, to stabilize or something else would happen. I automatically made me think, what is bad and good. You saw dark side of human world, you deny it or try to be helpful? Those days strengthen my belief that the answer should be the latter. [Connecting this to my experience at CEU. This might be a more interesting question when we are facing dark sides of other group or nations. Belittle, hate, deny or try to be helpful personally. The choice should not change.] Thinking might be the most valuable thing I did at Nanjing. At this time, I chose to avoid everything except the work and future and attempted to get rid of some past affairs and figures. And Nanjing was just a city, a city where those things happened. The May should be a romantic one in Nanjing, I went to sites like Jiming Temple and Xuanwu Lake for a leisure and inspirations. But what came out was vivid memory of the past relationship with someone, unbearable to recall. There is a certain fashion nowadays that Everything should be appraised objectively, even we know it is never possible. I see things adorable and I go for them, see stuff hard I leave. Too objective too face, too practical too follow, for a human being, a fleshed one. No matter how hard, the city trained me and led me to a new phrase of my life. I cannot have an objective view of too many, even all things, Nanjing is no exceptional. I left the city of Nanjing after the May of 2012, a city I love yet just cant anymore.
Posted on: Sun, 18 May 2014 18:50:33 +0000
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