It took me almost a year to just begin to wake up and I screwed up 10 years or so of my life with unGodly stuff. So hard to accept and make the change because of the trap. Its like December 25the. I have understood it is a horrible pagan ritual since 2009 about. My thoughts were, how am i going to celebrate my saviours birthday? I want to be with my family. Or the yes, I get it, but I still want to go through with it. Last year, I was extremely disturbed by family. By my life. By what happened. By what I CHOOSE. My mistakes. Trying to rush through and clean up in desperation to fix lost time. To say God, I am so sorry. During the year, it took till spring till started truly getting somewhere. I learned, God Knows I am trying. He knows I want to do better. Once I gave it to him, he then is to walk with me and teach me. It is only his choice on how long and what he would have for me and my choice to accept or resist. It is a slow fade. It is fast to walk away from Christ and extremely painful coming back to him. Why i am so particular about what I wrap myself into. Even a joke out of trying to find peace, that maybe completely harmless emotionally like ( you dont mean it in bad natural, ) this to me i have heckling to laugh at. I usually remain straight faced best i can. It hurts because I want to laugh with people. The issue is, its not cool. It hurts in the long run once satan sees the view. And I like to laugh 8-c So be intelligent and learn healthy spirit so we can all laugh and love to rid nasty and stand strong in God. We are Christians right?
Posted on: Tue, 16 Dec 2014 18:15:45 +0000
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